I hear voices, and I did even more before my meds started working. They would talk about many things, but mostly lies they would try to convince me are true. Sometimes they would even say they loved me.
My wife is a therapist, and she says they learned in school that schizophrenics mostly just hear persecution, as in voices telling you that you are bad or you should harm yourself or others.
Is this your experience? I told my wife that I heard of others having persecution but it wasn’t limited to that. Am I non typical?
Me either. I dont have bad voice. My voices told me they love me. They take care of me. We are like friends. About lies, I think a lot of the stuff they tell me are not true. but there are times they tell me something and I find out those are the truth later. I dont know why.
I don’t know what’s typical and I’ve learned that you can’t always believe what you read or are told about sz. But my voices (mostly one in particular now) range from annoying jabs at me to overwhelming demands for me to hurt and/or kill myself.
I’m comforted by the presence of my companion because “he’s” so powerful and makes me feel powerful by being there, but when “he” speaks it’s never kind or encouraging.
i hear multiple voices, devon, aaron, rebecca, phillip and beliel. i also hear voices of people i know. they tell me they hate me and they tell me to hurt myself and i hate it.
i didn’t tell my partner about those or my doctor. i’m afraid if i did they would hospitalize me again.
Mainly three distinct ones and several others that are responsible for what I would call just useless “chatter”,
They rarely say anything, they’re just always talking. Sometimes I can pick up on certain words or phrases, but its mostly just non stop nonsense.
The two of the named ones are pretty benign.
Only one that is really violent and calls for me to hurt others. In addition to demanding the slaughter of innocents, he says the cruelest things about me. It scares me how dark he is, because I know after all, he is me.
I don’t know, one of two more mild one is always talking about my weight, grey hairs, or telling me I’m aging poorly in a plethora of creative ways.
The other loves me and tells me frequently, but that has been equally as destructive.
Most of my voices were persecutory, but not all. Commonly insulting me, accusing me of things, or telling me to harm myself. Probably more difficult to deal with were the ones that were using the same voices as people I knew and talking about plans to drug, attack or kill me etc, so I always thought I was overhearing people I knew saying these things.
I only had one of three voices that were pushing me to hurt myself and even others, of course it was a struggle to not obey them at times. The other two I had were rather harmless and just told me things like…well one tried to tell me I was a goddess and the other was just trying to protect me from the harmful voice and would encourage me positively.
My voices are a bunch of people making fun of other people. And to quiet them down they call each other out. And they call me a faggot. So f*cking weird.
I am very not racist, but arguments about race make me uncomfortable. The voices would sometimes use the n word, and I would freak out. I think it happened because I was uncomfortable.
Do you think that’s why the voices used the word faggot with you? Also they used that word with me as well.
To be honest, it’s like my sz intentionally makes me paranoid and mentally abused to the point that I want to kill myself. It’s hard to describe but I think they call me a faggot bc it’s something I’m specifically insecure about. I know that they’re just hallucinations and neurons firing in my brain, and it’s not a delusion when I say I think there’s a reason they said this. It just makes sense, same reason they told me to kill my self. It’s to make me feel completely helpless it’s the f*cking worst. Then I just started calling the voices out (when I was having an episode, I don’t hear them much anymore) and now that’s all they do. They call each other out. But if I smoke weed I hear “michael’s a faggot” and I laugh.
Yes! It is a struggle not to do what they say. Why is that? It’s like they get you in a mental arm hold. Of course on the big things you build a resistance. But it can be compelling. Mine would tell me not to eat things like dairy, and to have a salad instead, so I did it, only at first though.