I am clueless,
I feel I am getting better.
After drop in med’s the symptoms are not showing up.
One thing is the craze behind computer science has reduced.
I am able to sleep in the afternoon,
which was not the case for past two years.
I am at peace and happy.
Now I think whats next.
But I am not able to think of anything,
like what I want in life.
Or not sure if this is just a moment,
I better wait for two or three weeks to confirm if I am doing fine.
I would work full time and go back to university. Try to buy a house and a new car. Go to the gym daily to lose weight, hangout with my friends much more often, etc
I forgot to mention had been for an interview this week,
had taken my dad to the clinic and fell a sleep while waiting,
and got up and applied for a job,
and went for the interview,
on the same day spoke to HR and in operations round was not selected.
Went back home parents gave 1 hours and 30 mins advice and suggestions.
Just heard them and went to sleep.
I have no vision mission or dreams.
I feel like recovered but still meds in place.
Some where something is off, not sure what.
Or everything is fine.
I honestly don’t know what I would do. I’m 62 so, I’m too old to go to school or get a job. If I could, if they’d let me, I’d keep doing what I’m doing now. Which is volunteering.
I wouldnt want to be “recovered”. I see it as a gift that ive been blessed with. Sometimes i wish i wouldnt be tried so hard because soemtimes the voices are that annoying but… all in all im happy i have sz and aspergers. They present challenges but also give me an advantage in many ways.