I am bothered by songs having special meaning for me. It seems the songs were written for me. I find it very disturbing. Are others bothered by this. It would b.be great to know that I am not alone in this. I don’t have voices but my thoughts aren’t right.
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In “the party is crashing us now” by of Montreal in one of the breaks there is a faint ‘brrrryan’ it’s pretty distinct. Surely a coincidence.
But I like it.
I was diagnosed with delusions of reference. The radio was my enemy as I would personalize songs and actually believe the DJs were playing songs to intentionally mock me.
So you are not alone, my friend.
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One time I was listening to the radio show we got here. Lasso and slim fast spinning and spitting the news, encouraging a liberal perspective.
I was fully psychotic and receiving messages from them. Then laslo said “so what do you think kid?”
Forgot what the topic was. I just turned off the radio.
Thanks. Sometimes I don’t think I am sick but my thing is really theses delusions of reference. Sometimes I think I must be a witch with special powers to have these lyrics be so relevant to my life.
Your taken on cliiiiiimb. That’s long enough to put the best of us on backs. Like walking up a slide.
That’s the power of Art, fishserver.
I wrote this during one of my psychotic episodes…
Bad art can make you laugh.
Good art can make you think.
Great art can destroy you.
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I had this while unmedicated, and while on seroquel, but it went away on abilify.
That’s gold man. I’m gonna keep that. I’ll give you credit of course.
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Yes art is powerful. I think that there is a joint space where creativity comes from. It’s all out there and artists pick it up. It’s part of my delusion I guess. It’s like the world spins around me.
I like the coincidences too but I find there are too many and it’s scary.
During the height of one of my manias, there was a napkin on the road by my car.
I broke the word “napkin” into “Knap Kin”…as in someone was going to kidnap my daughters. So I raced down to the schoolyard to pick them up.
We all have our own battles, but there is a lot of overlap. Lyricists can either draw from experience or imagination.
The band Spoon has some creepily similar scenarios in its songs to my psychotic experience.
Yeah I get maniacs too and have broken words down for meaning or looked the word up in the dictionary for further implied meaning for me.
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At the hospital, I broke down the words Meat Lasagna into the acronym…
Me At Las Angeles Screen Actors Guild Not Applicable
(I believed the cook downstairs was purposely making fun of me!)
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Yeah man. There are albums written for me…even bands that formed about me lol. I’ll go for months just listening to instrumentals when it gets too weird. You are not alone. It is so damn hard to convince yourself otherwise. Hang in there. We aren’t THAT important, I think.
I have had problems with signs having special meaning to me. It’s hard to explain but the words would mean other than what the sign was supposed to mean. Like the highway sign “being alive is no accident.” It meant I was alive for a special reason. I was afraid to walk on a street called cross street because I thought I was Jesus.
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This is what I had too, signs of stores, names on vans and trucks that I would encounter outside… all had some reference to me. I would also see figures in clouds much clearer than normally, and they would be omens of what was about to happen to me as well. And I had the newsanchor talking to me once. Curiously enough I never had any of this with songs or talking on the radio.
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I thought I was being followed by sattelite cameras in the sky. Exasperated, I finally drove down a road called “Terninal Ave”…which led to the local pharmacy. I wanted the world to know that I was fed up, about to end my life by picking up sleeping pills.
I thought that would end the delusion, but it didn’t.
Rational Emotive Behavioral Therapy.
A form of CBT that I found really helpful for Is of R.
See What is Irrational? - The REBT Network: Albert Ellis | Rational Emotive Behavior Therapy