I just realized it doesn’t make a difference. This is my experience. It could be anything, how am I to check? I can’t. This is it. Im done.
You’re not in hell. You’re a physical body on planet earth.
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Sounds like Derealization. Don’t worry it goes away.
Yes it sounds like derealization. Hope it passes soon
Don’t ever think you can’t make a bad situation worse, because you always can. Take it easy. Talk to somebody. Remember the crisis lines, if you need them. Watch something good on tv. Check in on this site. Read a book. Try not to dwell on your misery. As long as you’re breathing, life is worthwhile.
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But sanity is just me forgetting im insane. Thats all Ill ever get. Everybody knows im off. Im clueless to all of it normally. ■■■■.
There have been times when I felt like I’d gotten everything I was going to get out of life, and it wasn’t that much. As I’ve gotten older I’ve learned to enjoy the simple pleasures. I’m 60 years old, and life isn’t bad.
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Its just that I was born into this world. And they told me things. I just listened. Life could literally be anything. I have bigger problems than worrying if theres an afterlife. This could be anything.
I could be all that exists.
It could be me and one other much more powerful force.
As advertised??? No. bullsht.
Why is it that every person that “loves” me just triggers me?? This is a ■■■■■■■ game.
hey man hope youre doing okay. Youre not in hell, how are the meds coming along?
Idk i think im ok. No meds would probably help me see clearly. But im on abilify, and theyll just lock me up and sedate me if i stop taking them so ill take them. Gotta play along, just not completely. Thats the key.
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There are certain guys around that just their presence triggers drinking urges in me. You’re getting pretty basic in your philosophy. The only thing you know for certain is that you exist. I take it for granted that there is a lot more world out there than just me. I trust my senses. Sometimes I worry that I’m in the matrix, or in some kind of suspended animation. That one preys on my mind, but I’m not obsessed with it.
Thanks for being honest that im stupid. Everybody lies and says im smart. ■■■■■■■■ I know im dumb and crazy. Appreciate the honesty for a change.
In some ways I’m very stupid, but I do know a thing or two.
A fool that knows he’s a fool, is at least wise in that regard.
i get it man i was on abilify too. i felt like i couldnt afford them for a long time, but i think theyre worth it. Also theres another medicine like abilify called risperidone which is way cheaper so maybe ask your doctor about that. I fear being hospitalized too but i think theres also a good side in getting help
Having symptoms either physical or mental can be hell. It’s a good opportunity to take good care of yourself. For some reason tea gets rid of anhedonia and makes me feel better sometimes?
I go play with animals when i get like this. Dogs are the best. Hell wouldn’t allow me to play with friends that love me.
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