I have trouble leaving the house and they know that. Am I really stable?
Agrophobia doesn’t necessarily mean you’re unstable @Pianogal
@SnowLeopard My dr is still trying to find a med that makes the men stop following me and recording everything I do. So either I am delusional and hallucinating and not stable, or I’m right and the men are real. If they’re real it makes perfect sense that I don’t like to go out and I am stable. I don’t know what to think right now. Maybe the men contacted them.
Who are the men? @Pianogal
They are former navy seals who thought I was an intelligence agent. Now they work for the gvt and they are watching me. They think I work for someone else, some other country, since now they know I don’t work for the us. They want information from me but they’re waiting for me to mess up. If I do something wrong they will snatch me and torture me until they get what they want.
What are they hoping to do by torturing you?
Get information from me about working for another country. But I don’t work for another country.
@Pianogal do you hear them saying all this? I feel like I can help. I don’t know why I feel that as I bring misery into everyone’s life. But ever since you started talking to me on here you have offered very great support despite my instability and a lot of people would get really frustrated
Maybe I can’t, I was a little grandiose when I posted that. I’m sorry, but I know what it’s like to be paranoid whether it be real or delusion. Know you’re not alone
Thanks @Winterblues!!! It’s the thought that counts
Paranoia ruled my life for way too long. My paranoia was about conversations. I studied talking and communication and that just taught me other ways to get isolated.
I’d be worried why people said one word. It would prey on my mind but the result was the same. Take the pills. If your still struggling let your treatment team know. It’s the only sound strategy. Navy Seals are doing extreme shite every day . They aren’t after a nice person in the community.
Paranoid delusions are hard to overcome but you can get there. I got there. It took me some med changes to get it right so it’s always worth fighting for that better function. Have a chat to your shrink!
I was once described as ‘stable in my instability’ by a pdoc ; in a letter to support my claim for benefits .
i really don’t know what is stable or unstable with illness and how they diagnose it. i hope you find a med that helps. I still have paranoia too. You are so helpful to others around here pianogal. just keep trying meds.
Yeah ideally or whatever that means you are stable.
I think all my doctors and therapist are in on it,
I don’t trust what none of them say
Yeah. I think the men may have talked to the gp therapy therapist. @Cindy10
It sure sounds like it to me. Just be careful. I want to trust my doctors so bad but I can’t.
But if they think your stable them let them think it to throw them off course. Maybe they will back off a bit from you
I deal with my own delusions. I feel that it tends towards a religious sort of tone so I try not to talk about them on here. I however am not religious so I have some insight that generally when I’m feeling that way, and that I think these thoughts might be true, that I’m generally delusional.
I don’t want you to suffer. I don’t know how to help you feel safe when you’re feeling the way that you are.
I was raised very religious but no longer are. However 90% of my paranoia and delusions are rooted in those religious teachings. The most severe episode I ever had God and Satan were taking turns messing with me to try and make me pick sides…the visual hallucinations were so terrifying I’m surprised my mind let me come back.