[S]chizophrenics experience psychotic forms of intrusion (e.g., “John Ashcroft is implanting his thoughts in my head.”), whereas dissociative patients experience nonpsychotic intrusions (e.g., “Sometimes I have thoughts that do not feel like they are mine.”).
I experience only “nonpsychotic intrusions”, so does that mean I have dissociative identity disorder rather than schizophrenia?? I’m f-ing pissed that I might be forced to live as a schizophrenic when in reality there’s a slight difference between my condition and that diagnosis. I just want to be understood correctly by my friggen lifelong psychiatrist overlord.
I used to think I had DID.
The voices I hear have distinct personalities, I even know how they “look”. I would feel like they took over control and spoke through me, but according to the pdoc, it was due to the psychosis.
It makes sense. Even when the voices took control, I never lost time or blacked out.
I’m pretty sure I don’t do either of those things.
But it’s just that I don’t feel that I’m in control of my actions, like nearly everything I do I call “guidance” which I believe to be possession of sorts.
I thought I had DID at one point, myself, because my personality felt fractured. Turns out, I was just generally dissociating from everything, including myself. I, too, don’t have “intrusive” psychosis, necessarily. I just have this radio announcer-type person that hangs out in my head and blabbers in gibberish all day, so I can’t really say somebody is INTRUDING in my mind or projecting themselves, you know?
Well, I have no idea. I also suspected I had DID before I was diagnosed with sz. Will, even after for a while. Turns out it was reoccurring dissociative amnesia.
