I was told to slow down by a psychiatrist… this was when I was involved with a theatre production I wrote and co produced at Edinburgh Fringe Festival, I was told to slow down ASAP warning was perhaps in May or April… so i haven’t really managed to slow down yet except for the odd week.
While in Edinburgh (9 months of preparation - 12 day mental busy work) I heard I had been awarded funds by the national lottery for my next play.
this one will be with professional actors, a large cast of community actors.
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i have taken 2 / 3 days off this weekend and still i am thinking like:
my bag is like a prayer book when i carry it… or I twist my hair a bit in the car… or i get snappy with my family (and eventually lose trust if it goes a bit further, but not sure … the thoughts and attitudes are warning signals.
my ‘new’ most noticeable change is i feel i am outwardly showing that i have a lank facial expression. I feel like i give up with the stress and just stare ahead - i did this all day the other day
i took 2 days off almost totally then the weekend hit and i relaxed (first time i gave myself a weekend off in a long time). Then this monday morning feeling of not wanting to get back to work
i was recently advised to get help
i don’t know if i should ask an actor i’m working with to co produce.
he’s been very unwell - lost a ton of weight and i didn’t catch what he said was wrong - (he’s difficult to understand - he mumbles quite badly)
He seems really nice. I think he could help if he’s winning and will agree to another job alongside the other.
i should write him an email.
He’s the male lead in a play focused on the lead female.
Still even with a production assistant, I’ll still have till June to stress adding up to 1.3yrs of stress which is the outside of what i could handle for psychosis to hit - before completion of even a 2nd year.
Thanks if you got this far x