I havn’t really heard voices since like november last year. I still find myself checking for them every now and then. some times i still think if I made it all up. but then i look back and its just way to insane for any of that ■■■■ to be made up, and i wouldn’t even know how to make up something so complex as the voices did.
i think its cuz i felt a little more special or important when i had the voices. although they are completely useless.
but in the long run no voices is of course the best thing for me.
i used to think similarly it eventually progressed to me transforming from myself to jesus and him speaking through me and back and forth when god willed it.
bizarre stuff. i dont believe that anymore though. took a few years to dismantle that delusion.
Hey yo level… just checking in to say I love you man. Good job winning the fight.
I have symptoms constantly and I still feel like I’m faking it (cause I handle this shit pretty well these days)… It’s almost a delusion in itself… be careful I guess.
I can loan you a few if you’re feeling lonely. They’re all “humanity = foodstuff… colonization… implants…” and so on. And they make hissing noises. A lot. Anyhow, they’re yours if you trade me a case of Coke Zero.
I have one main “companion” who has been pretty quiet for a few weeks now. He’s done this before, and it’s twisted but I miss him. Last time he was quiet, I cried and mourned. This time I don’ t feel so strongly, maybe because I expect his full return. He’s vicious sometimes, but he’s mine. I do still have the static and the mumbling, almost like there’s a crowd of people in another room. I can hear them but don’t know what they’re saying. I can’t imagine silence…don’t really think I’d like it, even with the bad parts of the noise…
Honestly I still hear voices until today. They are my guardian angel. It is at times very difficult to differentiate which are my thoughts and which are theirs.
