Once, when I was doing summer internship - I got a feedback that it’s almost impossible for me to work in an office. They said I am too slow at learning and etc.
Then I worked at a bookstore - and I got a very similar feedback. That the bookstore is quite too big for me. That there is too much information for me.
In both places I didn’t managed to create good relationships with managers - but it’s not the case. Maybe I am really either too stupid or my illness affects me in a way that it makes me harder to work.
But… As more time goes I am still not sure. My intelligence really should be somewhere in a middle, or a bit higher. Maybe my concentration and memory plays a role…
That’s why I started fearing work.
Maybe it’s impossible for me to work 
Yes you can say to yourself that you can 
I deal with fear on and off on every working day. It’s normal when you have mental illness and your idea of function is always standing at the edge of what you can do and pushing hard to see if you can move the wall back. If you’re scaring yourself because you’re trying new things you should take that as a sign you are doing things right.
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Hear hear @shutterbug is right. Your always going to be pushing against the entropic pull of the illness! Get ready for battle 
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I really can’t say it any better than what @shutterbug said, however, I would like to add that pushing yourself can be very rewarding, and in the end, you reap what you sow. So keep pushing.
It was hard at first for me to finish high school, but I did with a determined family pushing me, and am very grateful for it. It taught me that I wouldn’t just be collecting disability for the rest of my life, but that I can work and have a career. I wish you best of luck, @anon8411913
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Focus on your positive traits
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If you focusing on disasters disasters will happen try to think about positive future
Thanks to you a lot, people @Frenzy @shutterbug @FreeLunch @John_Raven 
Only one good thing I feel these days, is that I trully succesfully study right now.
I will study further, a masters degree, in a field which is interesting for me.
I hope that with every year I will learn new coping skills, and learn how to be more… sucesfull in a workplace, too. Maybe it will take lots of time, but I will try as much as it’s possible.
I really want to work. Maybe, I won’t get the best career even after those studies, but I hope I will find my place in this world.
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Relax calm down and receive your dream job 
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Maybe you could try and work from home. That’s pretty much my plan.
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Sorry you started fearing work, I’m trying to find work myself and hopefully someday become more independent.
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