I skipped my shot last time. I went to the VA, checked in for my appointment, then one of my therapists walked by and started asking me questions… After the interaction, I went to sit and wait to be called in. I was extremely paranoid by this time by it being time for my shot and having just been grilled in front of the waiting room and everyone in it. After waiting for almost half an hour I couldn’t take it any longer and I panicked and got up and walked out swiftly.
I had not been wanting to get my shot prior to this event because the previous one was wearing off and I was able to think fast again(albeit in many directions) and had actually started writing again. I felt good, had great energy and was fearing my injection would take all that away again.
My wife does not know I didn’t get my shot last time. My symptoms haven’t been too bad like to a point where I couldn’t handle it. Well, a few times I got way too over stimulated by the world around me but a dark quiet place and my anxiety meds helped that. My wife has noticed I haven’t been as tired or lethargic, and she’s loves that aspect, but would absolutely kick my ass if she knew I didn’t get my shot.(she’s told me my being medicated is directly tied to our continuance of being married).
So my shot is tomorrow and i have mixed feelings on whether or not to get it. I feel better than when I get my injection but I do fear maybe I might just be riding the wave at the moment and be coming towards the beach and the crash that comes with it.
Any thoughts as to what I should do? I don’t want to be medicated but am not sure how long this will last, the feelings I’m having without the meds.
I don’t know what to do.
I get the risperdal consta 50mg long acting injection, for reference sake.
Yes, I was afraid of that. And I know its true and I am lucky I haven’t spiraled out of control yet. Last time I missed an injection it took months to get stable again. I guess I was hoping this time would be different
When I stopped taking my meds, I felt amazing for two weeks. My energy was high, I was so productive, and I felt like a superhero. Then came the crash. The crash is always waiting for you. Go get your shot, and avoid doing anything that could jeopardize your marriage. Learn from the mistakes of so many of us.
cant you ask them for meds instead? i like my med because i can take as much or as little as i need, maybe i am unique in this aspect, i tried the shot but the staff freaked me out as well and it hurt so i stopped getting it.
I can’t remember to take my pills, I am supposed to be taking 2mg oral supplementation daily on top of my injection. Can’t remember and have an aversion to being medicated. The shot is my best option, although I lost my nurse, and do not have any connection to my new nurse. My last nurse was awesome, she knew what was up. Her son is my age and has sz as well so she could relate in a way.
To counteract the sedated lazy feeling, have you ever tried Sarcosine? It has done wonders for my motivation and organizational skills. I still have to sleep more ham average, though.
I am sorry. My long time ex and best friend (rip) was a former marine who had ptsd and some other stuff he didn’t talk about…he struggled with the VA for many years.
That was irresponsible of your therapist to do that. In a way, s/he violated your confidentiality rights by talking in front of everybody.