From those who are well off to the homeless and impoverished. From the majestic eagle to the seemingly dirty cockroach. Baring certain circumstances we all have an inherit worth and value.
So why do I absolutely hate myself? Why do I tell myself things that I would never even say to my worst enemy?
My girlfriend broke up with me a week and a half ago, and that combined with isolation of being in a hotel room alone for a week made my symptoms return after being just about symptom free for a long time.
Now, if I had a client who was schizophrenic and just got dumped and had to deal with perceived intense isolation, I would never tell them they deserve it, they’re worthless, and things will never get better. I would never say it to them because I don’t believe that for them. They have value and they don’t deserve the pain of psychosis on top of a break up and isolation. Things will improve.
So why do I believe it for myself? Why do I believe I’m worthless? That I deserve what I have?
Sorry for venting. I just had to type my words out as I don’t really have anyone to talk to right now.
I guess it’s black and white thinking. I’m guilty of that too. I have expected more from myself than anyone else. Just have to ease up, find the underlying cause to why you are feeling bad and reason with that.
For example subconcious you might be thinking that you are a complete failure since you partner left you and there is something wrong with you.
The reasoning can be, thousands of people break up every day, these things happen. There is nothing wrong with you, it just wasn’t meant to be.
It won’t blow over easily though, I guess we all have to go through a grieving process when someone we care about leaves, but try not to think destructive. Don’t bury yourself just because things didn’t turn out.(this time)