Oh, yeap, pals, am really trying to get rid of the complaining…
I gained quite more in wisdom, i try to not be so scared either…
But yesterday was real hell again…
It happens to me, even when am busy now…
My crises are very physical, the pain is awful then, cause coupled with fear…
Fear, that i’'ll go totally insane, that the worst will happen to me and my mom, in fact i have very few support when am panicked. My mom shouts to me then now, cause she’s out of patience…
One pdoc said, that i’'ll always be in pain and i have to not believe this anymore…
Nothing else, we have a big problem with one of our flats, but i wont occupy you with this…’
I just dont know when my next physical hell will happen, since years, it was almost every day…
For those who saw me quite obnoxious, i am truly sorry… Lately, am giving all my kindness to anyone who crosses my path, i have still few friends though and i have to overcome this life of 20 years of isolation.
The hard thing is that everyone now wants me healthy and active already, while i can’t beat such a bad, past, sedentary life in a flip of a switch anymore…
For who else his sz was very physical too? strange thing yeap, few understand this…
Lots of health and luck to you all 