I’m not an alcoholic but i do enjoy a drink. Just the next day becomes unbearable for me. All my past regrets come flooding back. my situation becomes a thousand times worse, the depression increases like hell. I think it’s for the best that i stop, just the boredom i get leads me to drink, i need a new hobby. I think when i get to the stage later on in the years of lowering my medication its going to lead to a relapse, its hard to explain but its making me mentally unstable, not in a delusional way or hallucinations its just going to end up triggering a relapse.
Right there with you buddy.
know how you feel
Alcohol is a dirty drug. After a long break from it I’ve come back and it feels dirtier and more painful. I used to never get hangovers now the next morning kinda sucks. I’m trying to replace it with gambling.
I know the feeling. It’s been six weeks since I drank, but that’s not because of any virtue of my own. The only two stores in town that sold beer closed. Lately I have been exercising and eating less, and I’m not going to drink again until I get my weight down to a reasonable level. I’m afraid I won’t exercise if I am hung over, and I’m also afraid I’ll eat a lot if I drink.
When I was a heavy drinker I had no insight… I was sure it was my meds not working right… not the fact that I was very drunk and then very hung over.
Alcohol is very insidious. For me… what could one drink do? Well someone some where in my life said that “One is never enough… and too much at the same time.”
That’s the boat I’m in.
Good luck with this struggle. I’m rooting for you all.
You said, I need to stop drinking: me too.
I must have tried to quit smoking and drinking a hundred times in the past several years and finally I just got so tired with trying to quit and going in circles and not being there for my family when they needed me. Enough is Enough already and put myself under arrest and a boot camp kind of mode because that is where I was headed for real.
They say that occasionally in AA. I think it is in The Big Book.
But in AA they say, “One drink (hit, bump, fix, etc) is too much and a thousand is never enough”.