There are no easy answers. Ask yourself what you wanted from him. If pity is what you seek you might want reassurance. That is an emotional need you’re not fulfilling somehow.
This is mind reading stuff so like I can’t read your mind but what is it you’re seeking in these emotionally vulnerable ways you reach out?
Some people see it as a sign of trust and such, some people see it as an opening to exploit. This is just what these moments can mean.
How do you know he’s a drunkard? Did he tell you? Is this information and trust recipricole(Sp) if so then I doubt you have much to worry about him telling on you. Men don’t usually gossip, but sometimes they can be jerks just like women, it depends on the group of people he’s with and if they’re good eggs.
Just be more confident, fake it, till you make it is a truism, your false bravado can turn into true self worth, just don’t do it at the sake of others. Find something you do you’re genuinely proud of, and toot your own horn.
Emotional depth is complex and I find that men don’t acknowledge the complexity and the part of themselves that seeks satisfaction on an emotional level, but are willing to dig through the weeds of what is emotionally bothering them, and really take machete to deeply rooted weediling problems that make them selves feel bad.
I have depression, I really work on this stuff with myself, but I can’t change my emotional gear shift from this crying depressed state of moodieness without chemical assistance, and I’m going to the doctor to change the medicine or dose this next coming tuesday, and I know enough about my problems and my emotional needs that I shouldn’t be as sad as I am because my current needs are met, and my future problems aren’t here yet.
If you look up to this person maybe you’re trying to tell him you admire his work ethic, but you can’t say it without putting yourself down etc.
I can shoot a different scenario at you for any idea you could have but generally this is gonna make the most sense if you just figure out like what emotion you’re craving when you’re around this person?
Emotions and your desire to eat certain foods but you’re not sure what yet, are kind of similar, talk them out until you find something that sounds like you might be hankering for it or sounds good and that might be whats up.
Emotions are complex and such so it could be any number of things, I don’t got all day to yabber but you know, this is a problem you have, its on you to invest in a solution.
Cheers, and please feel better. If you think about it logically you’ll problem find’n’s its own solution quite often.