17m
Crohns
Humira
Possible schizophrenic birth mom.
About 1.5 years ago I started noticing symptoms (paranoia, mild delusions, mild visuals (distorted objects))
And I became convinced I was schizophrenic. Eventually after about 5 months went away except for paranoia, then about a 2 months after that I became mildly depressed for about 2 months then that went away. And from then on all I had was panic attacks, paranoia and anxiety. The panic attacks gradually got worse over a few months and eventually it became a daily thing. I woke my parents up multiple times convinced I was dying. I accepted I was going to die multiple times. Then I became convinced I am special and I’m going to become rich and famous, I made multiple Instagram accounts and had a full plan for how it was going to happen (a completely unrealistic plan) and I started telling people how I’m gonna be rich. Anyway after sometime that went away, I still think I could become rich but at the same time I think It’s unrealistic and sounds stupid. But recently in the past two months my schizophrenic stage is coming back and worse this time. I’m the most paranoid I’ve ever been (I think people poison my food, plates, drinks) I constantly think my gf is cheating on me. There was one morning were I was waiting for the bus and this old woman gave me a sweet, I thought she poisoned me and had a panic attack. I’ve hallucinated but only at night, I saw a clown hiding at the end of my bed watching me and I saw something hanging of my light (which Ik can happen to people with no mental illness). I’ve Been noticing a huge amount of coincidences that all link together and That’s convinced me we’re in a simulation or we don’t exist at all. I’ll notice things in my peripheral vision that aren’t there when I look. I don’t know if I’ve had auditory hallucinations, but I think i might of. My thoughts will sometimes become external. Even while writing this I stopped multiple times as I heard laughing coming outside of my room and I thought it was because I was writing this. (Which it could be). My girlfriend says there’s definitely something wrong.
