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I’m having a bad night. I don’t know why. I had a pretty good day. Even went swimming for a couple hours. It was really relaxing and good exercise.

But now I’m hallucinating and getting a bit nervous. Not quite paranoid enough to say I’m paranoid, but things are scaring me and making me nervous. I don’t know. I guess it might be mild paranoia.

I keep seeing and hearing people at my bedroom window. My AC is in that window so it’s helping some to drown out the hallucinations, but it turns on and off so it’s not helping enough. I’m scared to go next to the window. I’m scared to get out from under the covers.

Will you talk to me until I get sleepy enough to sleep this off? I need help getting through this.

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Hey. Always good reading posts. Sorry your struggling at the moment but you do this long enough you realize those bad days happen. Swimming sounds like a nice day…poor or surf? I haven’t been in the ocean for years…I used to live on a island here and swam in the Pacific all the time…

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Hope you feel better soon
Look on the positive side that you had a good day and a swim
You will feel well again

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Can you believe me? I don’t know how to swim always been paranoid about this, never tried. But i went to local pools hahahh

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Pool. I’m about 2 hours from the ocean and the water is too cold to swim for that long, if at all. The Pacific is cold!

I know bad days happen, but usually they happen when something goes wrong. When I’m stressed about something. You know? It doesn’t usually happen when I have otherwise good days. But I guess my brain doesn’t care about how good my day was when it decides to go crazy.

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I don’t swim well but I’m really good at floating! Lol I swim well enough, but it’s not pretty. But mostly I stay in the shallow end where I can reach the bottom.

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Doing things different can upset the balance of things. Pacific is pretty nice up here in Queensland. It’s usually around 30 degrees and a dip in the ocean is so nice.

I’d like to do more swimming. I’m not a bad freestyle swimmer…You learn to swim early in Australia @anon51414962 !

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I keep hearing creepy music. I can’t tell if it’s real or not. Maybe it’s real and I can just barely hear it? Either way I don’t like it.

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I like water in general, i love showering but no swimming hhahaha

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I bet I know why this is happening. My mother is supposed to visit tomorrow and I’m not looking forward to it. Maybe it’s making me more anxious than I realized.

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Good for you for coming on here and not being alone with it. I’m so sorry you’re having a bad night. I have them too and I know they are no fun. You’re not alone.

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@LED do you have a tele or something to reality check? I always sleep with a radio…I love a crazy radio station over here. Lots of talk radio and different music shows. Very easy to go to sleep too!

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Sometimes i slept with headphones on listening to radio station but the sound low. And i woke up still the radio running only on my phone hahah

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I don’t have anything like that in the bedroom. I don’t even have headphones anymore for my phone because my new phone doesn’t have a headphone jack and I haven’t found Bluetooth headphones that I want yet. I really really need to get on that, though.

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I fell asleep last night at 9pm so early. I can sleep and nap whenever i want

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Well tomorrow is another day. Air con or fan is good. Drowns out background noises! I used to have a fan blowing on my head even in winter because I was a horrible insomniac! These days I’ve finally learned to live without but gawd it took some time!

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I’m jealous. I’m awful at naps. I can almost never nap and when I do I’ll certainly not sleep that night. Even when I’m truly exhausted I can barely sleep. Getting 5 hours in a 24 hour period is as good as I usually get. And even then it’s an hour here, 2 hours there, another hour here. All broken up and not really restful.

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I found these. Maybe I’ll order them.

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@LED I feel you have disagreed with my posts a lot in the past. I’m probably slightly jaded over it. Sorry about the trouble you’re going through though.

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I don’t have anything against you. Promise. I rub a lot of people the wrong way, though. So I apologise if I’ve said something mean to you. I promise it wasn’t intended to be mean.

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