Some of the best times I have ever had were on psychedelics. I haven’t done any in years, and no longer have a connection to find some but I miss that pure love feeling you get from tripping your ass off. I feel that it would get me out of this suicidal funk i am in and keep me happy for another year.
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I did shrooms in april and may. And LSD 3 times in March. I actually have done hallucinogens about 40-50 times. Do I miss it? Not yet.
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Was it the reason for my problems you may ask with SZ? No…the drugs were the answers, not the problem. Although not without consequence. I now need klonopin to balance out all the anxiety I got from tripping.
Glad you made this thread.
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Are you kidding me?!? Tripping got me into this mess in the first place - did some potent mescaline once - thats all it took
Maybe you were prone to SZ. I never had psychosis before drugs, but I certainly was “out of touch”, depressed and anxious. I had a drug therapist tell me that some people are born half schizophrenic, and they take psychedelics because they want to become “fully schizophrenic”, because the insanity of uncertainty about who you are is worse than the insanity of schizophrenia itself.
That said I don’t plan on doing it again…causes me too much anxiety.
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well you have had more experience than i have with it. I’ve only had a few psychadelic experiences, all of them were fantastic. i consider them nothing like my sz, though i question how f’d up my f’n voices would get if i tripped out “with them”.
I had mental illness - bipolar/SZ ? as a child - the drugs tripped me into full blown mental illness - I had done weed in the past with no ill effects, it was the mescaline ( hallucinogenic) that blew my mind.
I was in a crowded unfamiliar place full of strangers, I had a very bad trip. Lasted for days - my ‘sick’ brain could not handle it
if you really think that???
I’ve had one terrible trip that I got so paranoid and it ruined my life…tripped me right into SZ. I wouldn’t wish that on anybody. But other than that they’ve been mostly mild…taking small amounts and/or having good trips. Fortunately I don’t hear voices…only heard em 2 times and that was a while ago…maybe a year after the bad trip with no trips in between. After the bad trip the drugs changed and didn’t affect me as roughly. I took a 3 year break before doing them again. Iv’e done them on meds a lot…and off meds too. I’m diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic+bi-polar=schizoaffective too. I think my onset was pretty young, when I started slipping into a fantasy world, losing focus, sense of reality, sleep, becoming lazy and etc… I believe hallucinogens helped with some of my symptoms but I would have been better off sticking with weed and/or time. I live with no regrets and feel hallucinogens give you insight…but ya. They definitely made me worse when it comes to the internal stimuli and overall craziness of the disease. I have a feeling we’re somewhat of the same @Wave in the way our illness has been manifested by hallucinogens but genetically having the gene at the same time. I think one day you’ll look back and be on good meds and happy and be like “Maybe I shouldn’t have tripped…but it wasn’t the end of the world. Maybe I learned something from it.” But I’m only 24 too and struggling so not sure how much I know also. Peace.
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There were some times were I truly missed XTC. I needed it to melt the flat wax build-up.
Everything this illness took away… XTC gave back. I could feel happiness again.
I used to enjoy psychedelics… but it only complicated things… made the head circus worse. Took longer to stabilize…
I used to crave it, dream about it, wish for it.
But this last year fairly consistent stability… I don’t miss it any more. It’s just not worth it any more.
If I want to hallucinate and have my senses scramble… all I have to do now is stop taking my meds.
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I had a lot of fun on LSD and mushrooms when I was a teenager. In fact the first concert I ever went to, in 1977, I saw Led Zeppelin while I was on acid with 52,000 other people at Oakland Coliseum. And the next year I saw the Rolling Stones there while on acid too. The seventy mile drive back home after seeing the Rolling stones at night was interesting to say the least. But I also had 4 or 5 bad trips; the last time put me over the edge into schizophrenia. Would I recommend psychedelics to anybody? No I wouldn’t. I know for SURE that I will never take psychedelics again. I instinctively know that my brain could not handle it. I can’t see risking my sanity while hoping for a good trip. End of story.
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man ive been so high from full blown mania nothing really compares.
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I feel that psychedelics have helped me out as long as I was alone in a comfortable setting. While on mescaline, I gazed upon sheets of paper and traced what I saw being projected onto the paper. It was all things being interconnected into each other. I don’t think psychedelics contributed to any illness I have now. There are no effects, mental or physical I still feel from these substances which has been almost a year since ingested. But for a while after taking them, I seemed to be immune from depression. Of course there was a bad trip with mushrooms because I mixed it with marijuana, which was a very bad thing to do I came to realize. Everything that was spoken to me became so distorted I could not recognize anything being said. Overall, I wouldn’t suggest most people try hallucinogens, but if you’re going to do it anyways, I suggest you start with such a mild dose that all you feel is slight euphoria. If that seems to be okay, gradually increase the dose. Erowid.org is a good site to gain knowledge about certain substances, so check it out if you don’t know about it.
Take care and happy new year!
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i just dont understand why anyone would want to take hallucinogens if they have sz when they hallucinate without them? lol its just rediculous. id imagine it is just ones curiosity for exploring or looking to escape
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I had a bad time with LSD.
Jayster
Yes, good question. I don’t understand why anyone would want to take any kind of illegal drug for that matter. Curiosity and escape like you said, coping, fitting in, expanding creativity, boredom, excuse to act aggressive, spiritual guidance, attention, rebelling, ending your life. Who knows.
Take care!
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