Hey mate. I think it’s good your in the mood to accept some help. It’s hard but sometimes you need to play the game to get some decent care. I wish you well as always. Just allow yourself some room to accept others ideas. Your a good egg. You deserve to have some better care.
I’m soon to be 52. I’m very good socially. Sometimes I do things I don’t want to do because even though I may not see it at the time it’s best for my health…For example. A doctor gives me pills I take them even if the world is against me and I’m mega paranoid. I trust some people and the is beneficial to my health.
I get it. The health services are problematic but I think you are doing yourself a disservice by not playing that game. Be nice. Listen to advice and trust some folks outside your circle. You may find you do ok and your better off…
All’s I’m saying to you is don’t write off everything and be confrontational about it. Play the game and do what others may suggest for a while. Just seeing some patterns of behavior there that are affecting you negatively.