Hi. I didn’t know who to turn to so I hope this helps.
I quit all my meds about 3 to 4 weeks ago. I felt good then it got bad. I have been physical with nurses-I spat in a nurses face when they restrained me. This is not like me at all.
The police men in my head won’t shut up. They tell me they are going to gang rape me etc and I can physically feel it. They said they would take more of my body parts and they have-my feet.
I am in hospital at the moment and it looks like I am going to be discharged this week. The doctor doesn’t know this stuff. He says he isn’t going to force me on meds. I’m pretty good at hiding it but water is starting to slip through the cracks.
Do I tell him and risk being injected and made to stay in hospital? Or should I just persevere through it. Please help me im at wits end.
I know and all I want is to be honest and go back to my normal life. But I can’t get to the belief that I have some sort of psychotic illness. Why does it feel so real…
Well I guess it was a mix of things. Voices ordering me not to. Getting sick of side effects. Believing I am not mentally ill. That’s a few reasons. Since stopping the mess I have had positive things happen like a decrease in panic attacks substantially
Perhaps going on injections is the solution then. Ask your doctor about it. From what you’ve written so far, you surely have an affliction of some kind, in my opinion.
Yeah its just I don’t do well with injection s the policemen start yelling and saying I’m being poisoned gonna be raped killed etc so its a big fear of mine and I loose it and start to harm others when the nurses gang up on me to restraint me to give it and I scream till I loose my voice
Please take your meds
It’s the only way you will feel better
Things can and will get worse without
Injections are a great idea for you not to have to take meds every day
I was on them for years
That is the way it is with me and the med’s. There have been times when I was off my med’s and it felt great, but then I got abusive to people and I got in trouble. I recommend that you talk to your pdoc about this. From what I’m hearing, you’re not ready to make it without your med’s.
You need meds. So you need to tell your dr everything. Literally everything so he can treat you properly. What if you don’t, and you get discharged without treatment and you harm innocent people? That’s unacceptable. Please tell your dr and take your meds
I understand your reluctance, I’ve been there, and so had my aunt. I’ve told her story before on here. She had schizophrenia and didn’t take meds. One day she woke up seeing men in black suits that weren’t there. She got in her helicopter to run away and ultimately ended up in a fatal crash. I know medications could be better, but please be patient with them. New medications are in the works but it will take time. Until then we have to do with what we have. I hope you feel better soon, and know that you can trust your doctor, he just wants to give you medication that will quiet your mind down. Making it easier to think.
It’s not uncommon for people to go off their meds when they feel better. It’s understandable but the truth is we need the meds to continue to stay well. At least that’s how it is with me.
