I’m slipping

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My voice, Mia, had started asking me if I can overdose on my meds. I don’t intend to find out, but it’s uncomfortable.
I don’t want to die. But she keeps asking about each of my medications as it she has an agenda.

I’m also starting to feel like music is speaking to me personally, although I know that logically, it can’t.

I don’t want to bother anyone. The friend I usually tell has a birthday today, and I don’t want to upset him, although he’ll be equally upset that I didn’t tell him if this gets any worse.

Mia is also telling me I’m pathetic for not being able to suck it up this one day and stop being a bother.
I thought I was doing better, but I’m worried I might be slipping.

My pnurse is going to call me tomorrow, I’ll tell her everything then.

I wish I was stronger.

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U seem strong just for doing what ur doin… Making it through each moment without giving in amd still enough grip on reality to know to reach out…

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I’m glad your pnurse is calling tomorrow. If you need to call her today, do it. If you need to go to the hospital today, do that. I’m sorry you’re feeling scared right now. Is there any additional stress in your life right now that can be causing an increase in symptoms? Any physical changes in your body that could affect how it metabolizes the medicine?

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Sometimes it can be a daily struggle with this disease.

That’s great that you have that kind of support. I hope they can do something. Do you think you can wait till tomorrow or should you call them today ?

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No, nothing out of the ordinary that I can think of.
She’s gone home for the day, but I might have someone else to call.

All that’s changed in the last month is that I’ve started taking anti-acids.

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I’m sorry u feel so bad right now.

I wish I could give u a hug

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If u feeling bad, its important to let them know. Just them knowing will make u feel better and safer.

Maybe call or watsap your nurse and just let them know.

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She’s gone home for the day, but I have a backup option I can use. I’m on the bus right now, I’ll call them when I get home

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I can’t shake the feeling that I’m weak for being like this. That I should be learning to do better by now.
That I should somehow be able to shake it off.

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Wait, hold the phone, @Pikasaur a couple of days ago you said that you were having your period and had suffered pms. You posted on the forum, if that’s the case, your hormones could be the problem :thinking:

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Turned out it wasn’t my period, I was just having some one-time spotting

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Hmmm, I think that couldd be indigatory to a health, maybe not a mental health issue. Let your healthcare team know that you were suffering from pms symptoms and spotted. They are there to help you, but nobody can unless they know the whole picture of what’s going on :hugs:. We’re here for support, but you’ve gotta look at everything that’s going on with your body in order to find help :hugs:

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I’ve got a gyno appointment in a couple of weeks, I can bring it up then :slight_smile:

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Well if you’re in a bad state let whoever is treating you know. They’re all medical professionals. They need to be aware,not trying to be bossy. I just want you to be ok as fast as possible :hugs:

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Thanks. I’ll make sure someone gets told.
I appreciate you looking out for me :slight_smile:

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No problem, I care. Besides, the “women stuff” can affect everything :exploding_head: keep us updated!

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Will do! 151515

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I called an emergency line you can call for mental health issues - had a nice chat with the fellow who answered the phone.
I still feel like ■■■■, but I feel less lonely now

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Don’t feel lonely. You can pm me and we message while I break for lunch :hugs:. If not no biggie, just offering or could chat here…

:hugs:

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I’d appreciate that :slight_smile:
Do you want me to pm you here or on Discord?

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