I can sense a slipping into a depressive psychotic episode. My brain feels strange like it is being touched with a rod.
I can feel this anxiety. I am rocking. I am rocking a lot.
Maybe because I was so overwhelmed the last three days.
I have a friend who isn’t responding to me. I feel like she is planning something but know that is stupid. It is just my head.
I am trying to catch this before something happens.
Any suggestions
I hope all is well.
Take care.
I feel the same way - I’m slipping! Scary stuff after I did well for a few days!! Maybe leave stressful endeavors for awhile and do something relaxing and relieving @Sharp? It’s what I’m gonna try.
I hate this feeling. I don’t know what to do. I have no leather left and need to do school work. I won’t be able to. I am will try. Feels like my head is going to explode with paranoia.
One thing we can do right now is to step back, try to decompress and just breathe. I don’t know if that will help, but I do know that stress makes symptoms worse. Just breathe for a few moments. Talk to someone who you love or grounds you as well. Hang in there @Sharp!!
Hills and pitfalls the life of the SZ…
keep trucking… the good days will come around again. Even quicker when you start to trust that they are going to be there.
Probably a good thing to let your parents know that you are in the early stages of having increased symptoms. They can’t do a lot, but it will help them trust your ability to recognize issues with and manage your condition on your own. I’m hoping you’re talking to your doctor/nurse or whoever you reach out to. Also, are you keeping a health diary of sorts? They are handy for figuring out what things might be triggering you.
Sending many hugs and best wishes from up north. Hope you are feeling better soon!
Do you have something to calm you down like a benzo? I hate benzos, but they’re pretty good in situations like this.
I don’t have any but my mom does. I will ask her.
I will try. I am not sure how well they will react. I hadn’t thought of a diary. I could try to.
One of my triggers is when neurotypical people don’t message me back or ignore me. I don’t know if they are doing it on purpose. My brain goes off on a tangent that they are conspiring which is stupid.
Thank you for the hugs 
I’m sorry you’re having a rough time. When I feel myself start to spiral, I play puzzle games. They force the rational size of your brain into action and shut down emotions. I also sometimes put an ice pack on the back of my head. It literally chills me out.
I should lend you mine… that little bugger is always prodding for attention.
Thanks guys. I feel weird. I can’t explain. I don’t like this. verything wants to kill me it feels. This is a lie though.
@Sharp I’m sorry you’re feeling so out of sorts.
Can you do something to distract yourself a little? Since, you’re out of leather, I guess leather working is out for now, but maybe do something else you enjoy. Maybe draw a picture about how you’re feeling or write about the way you’re feeling? Play a computer game or listen to music? Design a steampunk outfit for your cat (OK, maybe not…)
P.S. Snuggling with your cat is a good coping plan. Pets have an uncanny ability to sooth and comfort their humans.
I’ve been writing poems that I am hearing in ways.
You’re taking on a lot and maybe feel overwhelmed by the wonderful steps you’re taking toward your future. I know it’s delusional (I guess), but it really is like there are demons out to destroy us, and they really become active when we’re achieving our goals. When I was about 22 and at The Academy of Art in San Francisco, it should have been such a happy and productive time. But the noise in my head was so loud. I stopped functioning and had to drop out in just my second semester. They won… You are so different because you’re not delusional, you’re treating your condition, and you won’t let them win. Taking breaks, petting the cat 
, taking one step at a time and being kind to yourself will get you through. You should be so proud of yourself @Sharp! One step at a time 
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Thank you. You are right about how the excitement just acts things up. It all feels so fragile, terrifying, but exciting. My veins pump my heart full of fear and joy. Thank you Hedgehog. I will try my best for myself and all of you great people .
How are you today?
I’m feeling a bit better. Not super great but happier. Thank you for asking