I’m in bad shape

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I’m rutting for you. This situation won’t last forever.

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@Wave

If you were gone, I would miss you. You add to the board, actually!

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Thanks @shutterbug @Jake @JudasK @LilyoftheValley and @Jayster

So far this morning (right now) I’m feeling better.
I started the increased Depakote, last night.
Crossing my fingers.

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Well done wave. You’re a trooper.

:slight_smile:

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youre going to be alright @Wave try to do something you enjoy today. Life is good even if its tough sometimes :slight_smile:

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Thanks @POET
Hopefully I’ll be ok, but my moods shift rapidly.

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You’re a good person wave.

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That’s good news :slight_smile:

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Thanks @Loke and @LilyoftheValley but my mood is extremely low again.

I’m tired of feeling this way.

I don’t know what to do anymore.

I guess I’ll try to distract myself by coming on here.

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Meds and med withdrawal can push you around emotionally. Crying, anger or laughing outbursts are not normal without a reason. Normally one would assume there is a reason for why you have an emotion that’s not “because of the med”.

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I’m sorry but I don’t understand.
Could you simplify your statement?

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Its not really directed at you. I don’t know why you are in bad shape. But for me it was often temporary and because of some med.

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Hugs @Wave . I’m glad you stay in communication with your doctor. You are doing the right thing. I hope things get better soon.

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Although there has been a lot of medication tweaks in the last couple of months, I’ve been slowly tapering down and up on my meds as dictated by my doctor.
One medication in particular (Lamictal) in doses over 25mg triggers manic and mixed episodes, so my doctor scaled down the dose back to 25mg.

I’ve also been feeling depressed even before the medication changes, it’s just gotten worse in the last week or so.

I attribute my ‘cycling’ to having bipolar disorder.

In other words, it boils down to having messed up brain chemistry.

It’s as simple as that.

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Thanks @anon55031185

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My cycling, years ago, was due to the same, I think. I’m blessed in that I either grew out of it or, I am just really well medicated. Idk which. Unlike you, @Wave , I wasn’t aware of my mood shifts. I only knew when I was suicidal.

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I don’t think I’d act on my suicidal thoughts @SkinnyMe

I’m sorry that you were were suicidal.

Did you make attempts?

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Yes, I made two attempts. One very serious and one not as serious.

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Oh man I’m sorry.

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It’s totally over now and has been for the past 17 years. Both my depression and suicidality have been completely gone for that long now.

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