I know when I have it made

I live in a nice apartment with only one roommate to contend with. My 2012 Volkswagen looks like new. My job is easy and pays me enough to afford going out to eat sometimes and puts gas in the car and occasionally buying new clothes. My symptoms are low.

I have two older sisters helping me and looking out for me. Despite the illness that I’ve had for 37 years my sense of humor is still intact (for better or worse) (I try not to inflict it on you guys but I just can’t stop myself), Even when I relapsed two years ago and I was suicidal feeling badly about myself and I thought I was kind of a horrible guy in some respects my ex-brother-in-law told me that I am a nice guy right before he drove me to the psyche ward. I am blessed. and lucky to be in the position I am in even though I worked hard to get here.

I just hope things just keep going my way while I sort out my problems. You reach a point in life, usually when you are little older that you realize how little you know about so much stuff in the world. It can be overwhelming. But it’s not something to fear, you just pick up some suff as you go along.

I had a great joke I wanted to tell anyone at work but I forgot to until just now. Here it is:.
I am the janitor on an army base going through an existentialist crisis. It’s true even though I mean it to sound. I am just dealing with so much right now, figuring out the world and what my future holds. i see too much of how people really are and it’s not always pretty but it’s interesting.

Anyways, life ain’t so bad. It could be better but I have my moments where I shine many times a day If i would just get out of my own way instead of causing my own problems. I could have a good life in my remaining years. Thanks for listening. “God bless us one and all” (thanks Tiny Tim. Now sit down shut up lol) (poor kid) (I guess that was mean). Anyways, enjoy the holidays if possible. be careful and good luck. Cheers!

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I’m going through an existential crisis too.

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Well @77nick77, you are great. I am agree with all of your words. But only I don’t want to compromise. You said - if I would just get out of my own way. I never agree with this. And what worse will happen now if I became a mad. I just want to fight. Fight till death. I know I am alone and my arms are only my words. I never involved in my matter to any family or friends. It is my war. I started it and find a way to finish.

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I know when I have it made too. And I do indeed have it made. I live in a senior living community where they cook our meals for us. They do our housekeeping and they provide most of our transportation needs too. They provide us with regular recreational activities and regular entertainment also. And all the staff are extremely friendly and nice. I have plenty of hobbies and interests to keep me busy all of the time. I know almost everyone of the residents here. And the facility itself is very beautiful. I am very happy and content here.

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