That its better to be very happy and crazy than being a tiny bit happy and not crazy on meds. Last time I stopped meds for 2years I was able to live alone with the money i saved for 6 months. I left Canada and went living in Germany in university housing, it was 280€/month. I was completely independant and was much more functional than on meds.
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I have the reverse issue
If I go off my meds, I’ll lose weight but then I’ll go insane cuz the voices will start insulting me again
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People in germany said why did i leave Canada, Canada is a better country than Germany and that they would love to immigrate to Canada lol
I had sz symptoms off meds but I was more functional than now, I just lived with my symptoms.
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I just wish I could take medicine without getting fat
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I’m totally dysfunctional off meds. Good job I live in a good country like England.
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I do have paranoia mostly off meds but it doesn’t stop me from being functional. But I was never able to have a job off meds while on low dose meds I could. I think my symptoms were preventing me from working. But I was able to go to class learn german, shop, take care of my room and I passed the whole day walking in shopping malls and streets while talking to strangers. I also went to church there. On meds I am less social and fear strangers or making new connections.
I often wish I could stop taking them too. But I don’t do well off them. I am even kind of afraid to try new medication because of side effects or being unstable… I feel stable, not necessarily super happy but not low or very depressed… little more like a human than when I’m not taking them. But it would be nice to get to a point where I don’t need them to function.
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The thing I don’t like about medication is that I dont really know what they are doing in my body over time.
Anyway hopefully it’s ok
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You’re on 5mg Abilify? I used to be stable on 10mg Abilify but then stopped meds for 2years then they put me on 20mg. Maybe stopping meds for 2yrs damaged my brain. I feel like I have other mental issues than sz, trauma probably or mania.
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That was also exactly my thought when i layed down very depressed for about 5 months, that twice, i swared no more medicaments ever…
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I feel like they make me weak physically and mentally. Too much dopamine blockade. Dopamine is energy and happiness.
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Yea I feel lazy and sluggish need to watch what I eat I think it helps if I loose weight
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What made you go back on the meds aziz? I did the same. Was very social and functional off meds for about a year or two. Completely different person off meds. But then eventually i didnt sleep for a couple days and mania started and got unwell again. So had to get back on meds.
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No meds = Off my flaming Rocker lol.
I always seem to have the insight, to dose up on pills tho. Cos my “second brain” is telling me ive lost the plot. Always very Wierd.
Its always side affects - versus - Quality of life. Sometimes you just gotta suck it up and deal with it.
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I had paranoia and illogical thoughts, my parents said I am crazy as I was saying non sense sometimes. Also had anger issues.
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