I really don't feel I have sz

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I mean it’s been 15 years and two psychotic episodes, the second one which was antidepressant induced and I wasn’t on antipsychotics at the time. I don’t even feel I have bipolar because my moods are internal rather than other people experiencing them too. I do feel I have some psychotic illness though. A personality disorder, stress, anxiety, trauma… etc I don’t know.

I am working with a therapist who is gonna refer me to a consultant to have my meds looked at. I am hoping to reduce from 10 to 5 Abilify.

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Don’t forget to mention your insight in mental illness and how you able to suppress them.

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What’s the reason you want to take less abilify?
What’s the change you are hoping for?

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I think the reason why I have gained so much weight is abilify. Maybe not quickly but gradually and it’s one of the reasons why im struggling so much with my weight. Also I don’t want to take more meds than I need to. 5mg was working fine for a long time for me without psychotic symptoms . reason I had to increase was cos I struggled to control my moods…

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My psychiatrist changed his mood from friendly to angry and friendly again in 10 minutes. It’s very frightening when these dumbfcks loose their temper.

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I see. Weight gain is becoming an issue for me too. Slowly but surely. I’m on 20mg abilify and my goal is to go down to 10mg over the next year or so.

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@Ish , you are not in a good job in the UK. Isn’t it enough.

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I wouldn’t be obsessed with diagnosis. It leads to nothing. It’s just a label for social security.

Just live life and try to do things and make new memories with your boyfriend and family. How are things with your brother now? I remember you being upset by him.

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I don’t know what you mean? a lot of people are not in a job regardless of mental illness.

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I understand your point of view. My therapist has said the same . it’s just a label. I can’t help but fixate on it.

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Yes . Stigma also .

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Not just stigma I decided a lot of things based on it, not having children was also partly because of my diagnosis.

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Mental health ) means you have lots of questions.
You really require tobsolved solve it. Then some relief.

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My pdoc snaps sometimes with her speech and I really want to lash out. I am kinda used to it, I have had a lot of pdocs. It’s like a whip cracking and I’m not being delusional. Some people just yell when they talk to you and deny it when confronted. Maybe it’s because they are foreigners?

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Yes, it’s sad, foreign psychiatrist are not good at English and maybe frustrated being misunderstood. Myself am bilingual and know about the frustrations of language.

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No one here has sz. Just like everyone in prison is innocent. :stuck_out_tongue:

But seriously, I dont know if you do or not but remember that sometimes insight into your own illness is blocked, even when its easy to see it in others.

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Taken away hope to ever recover from schizophrenia is cruel

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I think my sz has subsided too, but that it could come back under circumstances of prolonged stressful events.

I want off the AP, or at least get down to 2.5mg, but unfortunately I am unable to sleep sufficient without it. Interestingly I sleep better on 5mg zyprexa than on higher doses, but going below 5mg is difficult because of the insomnia. My doctor knows that I am trying. The deal is to give it up if positive symptoms arise.

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