I had a good talk with my dad over facebook messenger tonight. We were both talking about our mental health struggles. I told him I thought my drug use as a teenager brought out the multiple different mental illnesses I have in this brain of mine. He said he disagreed and he told me it runs in his side of the family (I already knew that, to some extent) he told me his sister, my aunt, has some serious mental health struggles. So I most likely get my issues from my dad and my aunt. I never met my dads parents, maybe they struggled too, who knows.
Then my dad asked me “What are you going to do when your grandma passes away?”. (I live with my grandma) I told him there’s 3 possibilities..
-
There’s a decent chance I could move in with my mom and her husband, who I used to live with before I moved in with my grandma. Problem is they live far away, a 90 minute drive from my current place, so I’d have to get a new doctor, pharmacy, ect.. and they live in a small city with a population of only about 55,000. My current city has way more, about 700,000. I’ve always prefered living in big cities. I like how many different stores and services are around. On the positive side, I could hang out with their cute little yorkie dog.
-
I hopefully get accepted for disability here in my province, save up enough money over the remaining months/years my grandma is alive and with that saved up money, I could look for a very cheap apartment to rent. One that would probably be ran by the governement for financially troubled people.
-
The sad and scary possiblity, I could end up on the streets. I’ve had substance abuse issues in the past and if I end up on the streets, I’m scared i’ll be a drug addict. Where would I sleep? how would I eat? its not safe at night either here. I hope it never comes to this..
now the good news! after I told my dad these 3 things, he said I could go live with him when my grandma passes away. So now I have another option. I would get to meet my little sister for the first time. (Shes my half sister, same dad, different mom) My dad lives in Ottawa.