“In some cases, however, a paranoid belief may appear false because it is unlikely, but may be true. For example, one our patients had a fear of being attacked by mafia thugs, which was shown to be not delusional but reasonable after careful review of his criminal past.”
What if my terrorist past is what links me to North Korea?
Oh no @flowers20 . I was really hoping that you were past this. I don’t believe that you have a terrorist past anyway.
What were your reasons for believing that you were a terrorist again? What did you do that you think qualifies you as a terrorist?
I wrote things about ISIS in a rap and I think my phone was hacked when I did. I once was in a car and the driver told me to put my phone on the floor–so I established contact with a terrorist. I heard voices of a terrorist trying to interview me in my head. I took scary pictures of myself putting black thread in between my teeth and posed with the Quaran or some religious book I don’t remember. While the people across the street who I think we’re terrorists were having some party, I could hear music. Our neighborhood is quiet so this was strange.
I don’t really remember details but when they caught me I saw visions of terrorists having black bags covering their face and being put on a conveyor type thing to be tortured. I remember seeing where they were tortured. This was like 3-4 years ago so I don’t remember all the details of why I thought I was a terrorist but I did collect Arabic material as well as other religious materials. I just really think I was one.
I also had an IT site and wrote a huge rap that I think was terroristic. I would take long walks and look for outlets a lot.
Yeah, I really don’t believe any of that qualifies you as a terrorist. I’ve read the Quran myself and I even went to Mosques when I was psychotic. I used to pray 5 times a day when I was psychotic. None of that made me a terrorist. Visions certainly don’t make you a terrorist. Here is the definition of a terrorist:
ter·ror·ist
noun
That does not sound like you. You have not used “unlawful violence and intimidation in the pursuit of political aims.”
You are not a terrorist @flowers20
@flowers20 I’m going to be really blunt: you need help.
We can’t give you that help here. We have all told you, repeatedly, that it is not possible the things you are “experiencing” and fearing could possibly be real.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this – it must be terrifying. I remember my delusions, and they were terrifying.
You were so close earlier today. You admitted these things aren’t real. What happened?
Regardless, you are having delusions. If you are on meds, they are not helping. You need to speak to a doctor and tell them all of these things you are telling us.
You need help.
The raps I wrote could be argued could be for political aims.
But you didn’t use violence or intimidation. Even if you were a terrorist(which you are not), your beliefs about N Korea are untrue. No one wants to kidnap you and turn into their dictator.
It seems like you occasionally take one step forward and come out of your delusion and then a few days later you always read something, see something or have some thought that brings you right back to square one. This has been going on for a long time @flowers20 , I’m not sure that I have anything new to tell you that you haven’t heard a million times before.
The N Korea thing is nothing more than a very persistent delusion.
But the raps were intimidation. They were threatening and intimidating.
I don’t know what else to tell you @flowers20 . I don’t believe you’re a terrorist. I don’t think some rap you made on your phone qualifies you as one. I doubt that you sent it to people and tried to get political gain out of it.
Even if you were, you aren’t going to be taken to N Korea. I gotta tell you, your delusion is so persistent and frustrating. It never seems to go away, no matter how many times we all tell you that it’s false.
I wrote multiple raps and one was on a computer website I made for an IT class.
Do you want the threat of being a terrorist and being taken to North Korea to go away?
There was another user with treatment resistant sz, I think it was girlontv. Only meds can help these ppl.
They should make a med similar or better than Clozapine as many can’t take Clozapine due to its side effects.
Yeah, I remember her. I had many long talks with her as well. The only thing is…most of them ARE on meds. Sometimes even meds don’t do the trick.
We need more meds like Clozapine or better yet.
Then she needs to be willing to go back to her doctor and keep working until she finds either a med or a med combo that works. I used to have to take two in order to get relief. (Now I take double dose Caplyta, and I still need occasional Navane PRN.)
I thought you got over this? Most people, including me, may go to great lengths to validate a delusion. You could end up doing it forever.
I read many articles about Clozapine resistant sz, thats what its called when no med work even Clozapine. Sometimes they add a mood stabilizer I forgot the name or Fluvoxamine, apparently these make Clozapine more effective. They also do blood tests to measure Clozapine in the blood to see if its not being metabolized very fast.
flowers20 sent me a message about ISIS a while ago, I didn’t respond as I don’t think I can help her and she had similar delusions as me about ISIS so it was triggering me.
Ijdgaf. Anymore.