I’m alive because I don’t want to end up in hell. That’s literally it.
Nothing else is keeping me away from dying. I’m tired of life, really.
I’m tired of my situation and everything in my life. I’m tired.
I’m trying really hard to be grateful for what I have- especially my family- but I only end up seeing the bad.
I’ve been there. Where the pain is great and there seems like almost no reason to endure it.
You are an important part of the universe. When you are going through hell, don’t stop (Churchill I think).
Can you express your pain in art? Now would be a good time.
@rogueone, are you around?
I’ve been drawing but I’m worried that it’ll expose my information if I post it here.
I just want to end my life but I don’t want to end up in hell, if there is one.
@anon10648258 because we are all individuals and so worth it. Don’t sell yourself short and I know it’s hard. It really is but one step at a time. I’ve been in some dark places but some people and animals keep me coming back…think of those in your life who need you. You would be surpised by how many do…
I don’t really think anyone wants me around anymore. I’ve lost faith in myself I think.
I try to help people but I just feel like I’m not doing anything helpful.
Self loathing is hard but common. We all are individuals and we are all different. We are often our own harshest critiques but hey…we all deserve to be here and to live good lives. Concentrate on what brings you some joy and go from there. Little victories are good so keep fighting. We all can learn from that. We aren’t bad people and we’ve been thrown some situations others would struggle with. Be strong. You are that.
I don’t know, I just feel like I’m not helping anyone by being alive. I just put more burden on others and I just cause more heartache.
I’m glad you are here and alive. Every child born is a burden, and yet their mothers love them.
Sometimes I feel this this way. Actually often, that no one wants me around. I find I am surprised that if I’m gone for a while people notice. When I get depressed feeling like this they are horrible but I also notice that after a day or so it lifts. I count the days in a row that I’m depressed so I know after 3 days or so that that’s worrisome. And if I feel hopeless or sad or depressed I know I need to get back to or start a new routine that involves being awake, self care like showers and preparing food, a mandatory walk down the block to the store. Ect. Being outside even if alone is important. Sobyea that’s what I do. The tide fluctuates. What I think today I know can drastically change so I always wait for it to change back to normal. It usually does.
Urgh yeah, I hear you there. 
It really sucks feeling that way. I hope you feel a bit better soon.
I hope you feel better soon as well my friend.
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