I’ve been free of self harm and alcohol abuse for four years today! The last two months were a challenge, and there was a time at the beginning of August that I didn’t think I’d be able to maintain my sobriety. I held on though by going back to the basics of sobriety, mainly taking it one day at a time.
Two months ago everything went to hell in a handbasket. From relationships ending to familial health issues, losing an internship and dropping out of school. I went from as perfect of a peace as I’d had in years to ultimate chaos. I almost relapsed with my alcohol addiction and I almost fell of the healthy clean living wagon. I held on though.
As of today I am 4 years sober, I’m down 90 pounds, I signed back up for school, I got a new job, I started volunteering, and I’m even running (with a bit of walking) a 5k next weekend. It’s my first since I was 17, and I’m 31 now for context.
I’m pretty lonely from the relationship aspect, but I am going to therapy twice a week and am working on myself so that I can be in a healthier mindset for my next relationship. (There was no toxicity or hard feelings with the breakup, we just had our own stuff to deal with)
The last two months I’ve been manic and psychotic, but the most amazing thing happened. I didn’t fall off the wagon like I had before! I’ve maintained my hygiene, my diet plan, my exercise regime, and well… Lets just not talk about my sleep patterns for now. That’s a work in progress.
I wanted to thank the forum for support over the last 3.5 years I’ve been here. @anon82948922, especially. You always reach out to those of us who are struggling with alcohol and substance abuse.
Glad you’ve held on, keep it up 
