And im nervous as ■■■■ shell hospitalize me. I mean im gon a be honest with her. Yesterday i crossed in front of a car trying to get it to hit me . it wasnt eeally goibg fast so i dont count it as an attempt. But it was like just ■■■■ it if it happens it happens. I also found a good spot to jump. And goibg in and out of delusional thinking i guess. I killed my roommate and am living in a parallel universe in which nothing means anything. Its cold and callous here and my homicidal thoughts have no meaning even if i act on them who cares im in an alaternate reality. Its like a strong feelibg i cant quite describe. When i think about killibg myself i think oh well ■■■■ it im not living in the same world where that made sense anymore. Im currently sitting in a bathtub rocking back and forward. I cant go vack
Just be honest and tell them everything. You are in need of some extra help right now. 
I feel at peace mostly since i decided to take my life. A huge weight has been lifted
I was pretty psychotic and insane for two` solid years. I had nothing going for me, my life mainly consisted of suffering and trying to keep my sanity. I could have easily just given up and killed myself. But I got through it, as impossible as it was, and now I’m so happy I stuck around. I got way better and had many great experiences and I have many great memories. You may not he able to see the light at the end of the tunnel but it’s there. People get better. I got better. You have a chance to get better too.
Let us know how your appointment goes. 
Youre always so encouraging i like you
Aw shucks. Thank you.
Like we said before a recital - “Play your best and fake the rest.” I’m sure you’ll do fine.
I’m glad you’re going to be honest. You need help right now.
I just cant go back to ghe hospital. I may not be honest because of that
You need to be honest. It’s really important.
Eep hides behind a rock
Why can’t you go to hospital?
Its so mind numbing boring i dont like having my freedom taken away
Bring books with you. Bring coloring. Bring puzzles. Bring something to be occupied with
All of those things are at my parents house rn. 
i just koved out of there. They lives hours away
Go to the store. The grocery store and pharmacy usually have books and crossword puzzles etc.
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