Losing my mind

Painfully aware of it. My emotions are extremely all over the place. Im having several meltdowns a day. Urges to self harm and more. Depressed one minute then elated the next, yet still want to end it all regardless. Its been reqlly off lately. I dont feel like im the same person, like im in some pergatory or simulation, lots of weird things keep happening. People are treating me differently. No ones real. Like a video game. A very surreal free floating video game. I feel invinsible. I am not the same person i was last week. Im not even a “me”. Im about to snap. Some lady crossed my path wearing a myrtle beach south carolina shirt and her name was mary. I was just talking to my friend who told me just hours ago she was born there. Im receiving messages and not even sure what they are.

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Sorry @Froge. Sounds really bad.

Is hospital an option?

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I dont know. I dont think i trust drs right now

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I hope this passes. sounds like you are have having a crisis for a while now. Hope you stay safe.

Who do you trust right now? Are you safe being alone?

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Is there a professional you can talk to that you do trust? It sounds like you’re in desperate need of help

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Um idk. Im weary ofeveryone. But not to the point of full distrust. And sometimes i am ok alone other times im not sure what ill do.

No. I dont trust my therapist and i was supposed to see a psychiatrist today but that got all â– â– â– â– â– â–  up. A couple months ago my long term therapist quit her job, and i couldnt see my psychiatrist without seeing her so i lost them both at the same time and its been rough.

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You need to make finding professionals you trust a top priority. Don’t give up

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I havent, im just oberwhelmed

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It’s due to the perverse logic of bureaucracy that if you don’t want to be admitted they will call the police and take you to the hospital in handcuffs, but if you do want to be admitted you’re malingering. But you sound a little edgy to me. Maybe you should check in with a counselor.

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I had the “message” thing pretty thoroughly. Once someone said, “Hello,” to me I thought it was a message about the “Hell” called “O”. And the anxiety made it worse.

That’s a long time ago for me. My life is relatively sweet these past few decades.

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