The voices are getting more distinct than they have for a long time
There is personality, sarcasm, delusional and crude that is insisting I call him Gerald
Not sure why this is happening
Usually it’s just ongoing fast chatter that overwhelms me, and I catch odd sentences and phrases that cut in and sometimes go audible.
Since being on the Vraylar and Olanzapine, it has slowed down a bit, and I am able to understand more of the noise
Gerald is a ■■■■■■■ ■■■■■■■.
Basically do I grant Gerald this title, or do I just ignore it
Never been much of a fan of this type of thing, but he’s being insistent to the point of the fact I cannot hear what else is going on, and I am frustrated
What do I do about this?
I certainly can’t talk to the pdoc
Noticing a lot now that the visual disturbances are back, and I can’t begin to say how paranoid I am about the neighbours here
When I’m that deep into conversation I can’t function at all and I need a break from all sources of stress. But it takes a while to get back to baseline.
I have to be blunt - but you have buggered about with so many different medications over the years, im not surprised your brain is having a toilet moment.
You really need to stick to one or two, and let them settle in.
A big factor with you is anxiety. Bet if you wasnt anxious you wouldnt get the paranoia, and the rabbit hole that goes with it.
Instead of having endless rows with your Pdoc, making complaints and changing medication. Take ownership of how you are feeling and learn some coping skills for yourself.
You rely on the drugs too much. And they aint never gonna be a magic bullet or “cure all”.
I noticed some improvement from meds within the first 4 weeks but over time, like the next couple months, as my body learned to cooperate with the med, more and more benefit and less and less side effects. Sometimes you need to be patient. And even being on two aps, an ad and a mood stabilizer, I still have breakthrough symptoms due to big stressors. I simply manage the stressor, let my pdoc know about the breakthrough and she determines whether to stay the same or increase or change.
Of course I haven’t made them out to be the bad guys, I have gotten some relief. I’m not floridly psychotic and trying to kill myself constantly so I’m pretty pleased.
I agree. This is beyond a layman’s comprehension. A pdoc will have a better idea of how to treat this. In the meantime you can sound off here, but be careful not to upset people.
I have all these symptoms. I am talking to one of my friend girl who i love plutonicaly and also one govt secret agency , also to the god. But I don’t know how i am able to work my job, Driving vehicle, behave normal in family and neighbours, also think accordingly. Sometimes I Lough and feel happy. Its all controlled by me.
