For the few years that I was sexually active, what I remember is that I was shamelessly selfish. No rules or morality could get through to me.
Don’t beat yourself up homie.
I’m trying to make it just be a statement of my behavior without punishing it. The fact that I managed to change my way is more important. It’s just difficult for me to look back and see how unhappy and helpless I was.
Word. Guilt is a really tough thing.
Yes it is. How does one forgive oneself? I can promise to never behave that way again. That’s about all I can do.
As humans we fall under temptation
It’s normal. However you just renounce it. Im there too.
It’s a lust thing. If I have pleasure. I stop N won’t allow myself to have a sensation. Thoughts creep in and I feel wrong. I’m not self punishing but if God willed it. I am with my partner sexually but I don’t allow stimuli. Tjat allows me to be carnal and lust after flesh. It’s not the greatest way to live. But he’s happy. I’ve learned to please him. His happiness comes first. So when he tells me he wants something, I’ve learned to jump and do.
And I’m still “freaky” but for his pleasure.
I think that it’s achievable for everyone. If you notice yourself get turned on just don’t follow thru.
With me it always happened “before I knew it.” I felt like the aggressive one even though I’m the female. I was out of control. Desperation due to a childhood of punishing it.
Look at the past as a lesson. I could go on; just look at the entire body of it as a lesson.
Don’t stress, stuff from a long time ago shouldn’t damage you and make you sad today. Even if it did shape who you are now, you shouldn’t dwell on it. Feelings fade. You are whoever you want to be now.
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