The name calling really hurts my feelings. I’ve had all I can take from him, my chief voice. I shut down tonight. He really hates being gay and has tortured me over it for more than 30 years. No offense gay people, I have homophobia and I’m really sick, and I need to share or die. Homophobia is a common problem and needs to be discussed more often. I guess you could say I’ve got gay tendencies. I spent two days with my brother who is gay and now is down south with my family. You would never guess I’ve a problem. Maybe I’m just mad at myself because I’m lonely. The love of my life has rejected me, the imaginary friend. I should be ashamed to be a self lover and fornicator. I hope there’s no “Day of shame”. I don’t know if posting these embarrassing things helps. Maybe I should stop. I’ve done it too much. When he stops believing in me we both disappear. He has destroyed me and any more damage he does is only to himself but he has an impulse to be mean and he can’t resist the name calling and laughter and such. We are one: we both want the other gone!!! I don’t want to go on a DID site because they don’t believe the voices are one with you and say it’s different parts of the brain. That’s malarkey! I’ve been diagnosed with schizo affective disorder bi polar type never DID.
Maybe you also have some PTSD
Are you taking your meds? Id bet the confusion your experiencing would make more sense if you were on the right meds
I’m good about taking my medication except when I sleep past 12 noon.
I hope you feel better soon, get some rest @Jinx