why do i do it???
wish i could just die already???
I’m sorry your feeling that way.
I hope you feel better soon.
Keep your stress in check and be kind to yourself. (that’s harder then it sounds.)
Good luck I’m rooting for you
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Can you elaborate on what’s going on? What’s got you down? I’d like to help you if I can.
I always feel this way. If I had infinite money I would still feel that way…But right now I especially feel that way. I’m drinking a little bit which is making me depressed, and my friend is ignoring me which is making me more depressed. maybe i’ll smoke a cigar which will help a little bit. idk 
and dont tell me to stop drinking because it aint that easy!!!
@Does anyone have the world figured out
cheered me up a little
because i was happy when i read that thread
i can’t stop drinking
but i can reason with the demon alcoholic nature i have
i only drink every 3-4 days (this time 5 days),
i like figuring things out…just not now
I’m sorry you’re down sweetie. I hope you start over tomorrow. Be good to yourself.
Congratulations on going 5 days this time. It’s not easy to fight off drinking.
You do have a lot going on right now.
I’m actually a little envious… I’d love to have a book ready for the next step.
Yeah, quitting drinking is not easy. Especially for people who don’t want to.
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I figure I’ll die with a bottle in my hand.
I just want to be a writer and read and write during the day…drink at nights.
I’m editing my work right now…still a little buzzed…Doing a revision before I send it to my friend who’s an editor (she’s already read it and liked it a lot, but needs my go-ahead before she does and edits)…I see myself as an alcoholic writer…as miserable as that sounds…i like misery…and its my dream…as miserable as that sounds…Idk what I’m saying right now but It’s my dream. Kurt vonnagot and hunter thompson were crazier than i sound right now. I worship idols too much which is everything against I learned in my religious classes but IDC. /drunk rant
peace
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Yup. That’ll do it. Have you considered hooking up with someone who can hold a bottle of Valium for you and parse it out for a week or two in smaller and smaller doses to get you off the booze? 'Cause drinking fairly hard every few days sets off a pattern of physiological “expectation” in the limbic system.
I know; more than you wanted to hear, but maybe it’ll be useful at some point. (I drank too hard for years; finally had to give it up.)
I feel that way a lot. There must be some grand reason for having me on this planet right? Otherwise why am I here? Why do live through this severe depression and schizophrenia and anxiety…why do I put up with the voices in my head, that no one else can hear…I must have some purpose in life. What is it? What can I do that no one else can that makes me a benefit to society rather than just a hamper on society?
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I take klonopin every day, it helps a little. I need it for anxiety, but don’t abuse it.
I’m an addict. I’ve taken hallucinogens 50 times, marijuana thousands of times and booze at least a thousand times.
Probably one of the main reasons i’m schizoaffective among other reasons too though.
I can’t quit…i volunteer though and go to school and looking for a real job…i’m a semi-functioning addict
I’m not ready to quit…and if i can be a success while on it…i’ll probably never quit
it’ll take 10 years more of failure for me to quit tbh
Tomorrow is a new day 
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I hope you feel better soon!
You made me smile today.
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just cause I wish I could die though doesn’t make me suicidal. I’m not going to do anything to myself I just wish…I don’t know. Just depression sucks.
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i feel the same way
btw i love cats too
my cat cheers me up
i love animals…i love how smart they are and how little we give them credit for how smart they are
i wish humans acknowledged how smart animals truly are
peace
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I’m miserable a large part of the time too. But I still have some great moments. I want to be happy and live a long life.
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Thoughts of my kitty really keeps most of the suicidal thoughts at bay…I think what will happen to my baby girl if something happened to me. I’m sure my parents would take care of her, she’s their spoiled little brat too, but I don’t want to test that theory. I also don’t want to be sent to a hospital for doing anything to myself because then I couldn’t take care of her like I’m supposed to
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