especially when exercising, maybe it is because i am so self-conscious, but i am used to the craziness that goes on when i am in my room and house and i have gotten used to it but outside there is just so much stuff whenever i see people i think they are talking about me, when i hear laughter i think someone is laughing at me
i used to feel like i have powers almost like i used to feel like i was high when i was psychotic because i would be talking to so many people some liked me some hated me but they always seemed so normal and here i am with the sick and twisted thoughts all day long, the good thing is that they arent real so if i bring up something else in my mind they will start talking about that and kinda forget about the crazy stuff i thought a second before,
i dont hear voices that loud anymore but when i hear muffled sounds like right now my mom is downstairs on the phone and i cant tell what she is saying which is a good thing but whenever i hear other people i start to perceive words and it reminds me of the voices and i start to wonder if they are talking about me and laughing at me and my thoughts, this is especially bad when i go to the city because it is so loud and there are so many sounds, whenever i see people i become anxious because i think i might start hearing their voices because when i was psychotic i would hear certain people that i see and have ■■■■■■ up conversations with them