some certain people. I believe it is because I am oversensitive to some certain people. For example, this includes specific people from my past before I became ill. No one is to blame imo, it just is like that because of the way I am made and the way the world works. Kind of like an allergic reaction to pollen. There is nothing bad about pollen, but still, my body reacts to it in an extremely defensive way for some reason, so defensive that it harms me. (I think that is how allergies work , not entirely sure but I think something along those lines maybe).
Yea it really sucks big time to me.
I have the time to be upset and it is good for me to not supress that (I like the idea of togetherness a lot that is the thing) and then try and move on in the way that suits me.
At the end of the day, I believe that we are all connected somehow, so it is not all bad, I just have to put into place some restrictions for however long I need to, to feel āsafeā in myself, if that may be for life then so be it, not trying to imply those other people are bad people, but just in the sense that when I overact to some people in terms of emotionally, it makes me feel not right.
But overall, it is all good, because what good does it do to think of life negatively, and because like anyone, I try to adapt. I believe there is a good purpose in everything in my life, somehow.
There is nothing wrong about feeling that some people just arenāt right for you.
Think of it along the lines that you would never have certain flavors in the same dish. You wouldnāt sprinkle porridge with chilli, but that doesenāt mean that either one of the ingredients are lesser. They just donāt go well together.
So I think it is with people as well. Some people work well together, while others shouldnāt have much to do with each other, but that doesenāt mean there is a problem really.
Well actually the reason why I used that example is actually because I like the fact that there is still some connectivity via the blood flow even if the organs are distanced from one another.
If the liver had a say in taking a drink or notā¦
Yeah I get your meaning. Itās the same in society. It takes all kinds to make the world go around even if some of them has little to with each other.
things sometimes hurt or stress me from the over-reaction and that means that there is a fear of future over-reactions, in particular fearing even worse over-reactions to come. It makes a lot of stress
Maybe it has elements of avoidant personality disorder.
But I feel like even with improved self confidence (something Iād like to try), IDK if it would ever go away fully, the avoidant trait. (in me personally)
I also avoid stuff that can hurt me. Iām not walking into a torture chamber willingly.
When it comes to other people Iām learning to stay away from those who treat me badly or are trying to use me as a pawn in their chessgame to satisfy their own agenda. Sometimes this means being hostileā¦or maybe ānon compliantā is a better term.
Thatās a great attitude to have. Hate only hurts the personwho feels it.
I have a very few people I donāt like, but I donāt waste energy thinking about them. If they appear somehow, which they rarely do I just treat them ānon compliantā. That is enough. Mostly because they have done things that is impossible to forget, and also they never asked for forgivenes.
I tell myself that there are plenty of fishies in the sea. In terms of hoping to meet new people. One day. Otherwise I would not be able to bear it. That I have to distance myself from certain people.
, not entirely sure but I think something along those lines maybe).
