The highshool reunion went without me.
That’s not problem, they all were sucessful.
But, yesterday, I saw my friend on news…
We used to play guitar, basketball, joke, went through lot good moments, but sawing him with suit and tie, reporting about some economic things defeated me…
How come I stayed in such devastating condition.
I also saw my ex couple times reporting about some art exibitions, but used to see her on tv…
What do I have to say?
You did not waste your life @anon25523312
They are all flying with real airplains, and I can’t get out to throw garbage…
@anon25523312 you have schizophrenia and you are making the best of it.
You are battling a monster of a disease everyday and managing.
This makes you a winner
Thanks @Vertigo, but this people are real.
I lived with my ex four years in this flat, now she won’t say hello on street…
People don’t recognize me any more.
Thing that hurts me most is nobody really remember me, or to call me.
I’m sorry @anon25523312
I know what you mean
When you suffer with a severe mental illness it’s easy to get ignored or passed by.
But it’s not our fault
It’s not easy living with this beast of an illness
I feel the same as you many times
Thanks buddy, I slept all day…
I’m sleeping 16 hours a day…
Just was happy to see him on youtube, and then it hit me.
@anon25523312 I am so very sorry you feel so defeated. I can relate to what you’ve said a million times. I’ve barely moved from the couch today. Everyone else is doing “real life” and I’m stuck on the couch. I know the galaxy is against me. Always thwarting my thoughts and dreams. Not to mention the messages. It truly sucks that your ex won’t even say hello to you. I have ex friends exactly like that too. What I don’t get is this: if I needed to have like gallbladder surgery or anything like that people would rally behind me and send me get well soon cards and bring over meals to my home. But if I’m unwell with sz? I get black listed from everyone and everything completely. No one cares and they act completely uncomfortable if I say one word about it. I’m sure you understand. And for that, I’m very sorry.
Thanks @anon90992146…
Yes, couch is my best friend these days also…
I made a decision to start from scratch…
I’ve been suggested to write a book about living with sz by moderator in fb group.
I’ll rethink about that.
we all feel like that sometimes
We are little babies just waiting to be born.
I feel like that too. I’m 35, no friends, never had a job. I spend all my time in a very small place watching tv, watching other people live. I think about this sometimes that i’ve only got one life and im wasting it.
@anon25523312 , Now I am trying to opposite it. A few years ago, When mom of my so girlfriend saw me in a temple on the occasion of prayer. She left the temple and prayer and sat outside of temple by crying.
But I remain silent at this.
I didn’t bother to go to my high school 20 year reunion, just like I didn’t bother to go to the prom. Not going to the reunion was a good idea, but not going to the prom was bad. I wasn’t as messed up back then, and I could have handled it if I made myself go. I don’t know if my life has been wasted, though. I think I have done a few good things, among many glaring omissions.
I feel the same way that I have fed into my illness for years and am now finally trying to accept that I have this illness in the first place and how to deal with it now without giving up on myself. To think about the positives in my life and to move forward with getting treated.
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