I am in my late 20s and life is a struggle. I have schizophrenia and I am constantly feeling anxious. I live with my parents, don’t have any friends, nobody to talk to and share with. I have some fears which are disturbing me and I tend to just panic and fear the worst is going to happen. For the past few weeks I wake up in the morning sweating and after 5 minutes I’m already crying in despair. This is happening every single morning. I then need to brush my teeth or maybe take a shower but it feels so difficult Im putting it off. I spend the day doing nothing at all, browsing reddit and just feeling so lonely due to lack of support.
I started having this fear about someone reading my mind and while I know it’s so irrational I just can’t get out of it. I have all of these intrusive thoughts and I constantly get so paranoid. I imagine how everyone could bully me for what I think. I do my best to calm down but seriously it’s difficult. I know it’s not real and I feel so guilty but I just don’t know what to do. I don’t have money for therapy, I don’t have anybody to talk to. I am desperately looking for help but I have no idea where to find it.
I have pcos, struggle with emotional eating and on top of that my mother is constantly asking me if I had food or why I am not eating. My father is somewhat abusive, constantly getting me angry and I cant reply back.
I don’t know what to do any more. I just need someone talk to but there’s no such person.
Hey there! Welcome back! I’m sorry you’re having these struggles I hope you’ll stay around and find fulfilling friendship here 
You can always pm me or tag me here if you’re bored. I’m looking for friends too 
I would make an appointment with a psychiatrist or GP and discuss your concerns and ask if they can help.
Hi @emotions , are you taking any medication for schizophrenia at the moment?
Good question man, meds can help a lot with mood stabilization
I was going to say :
“Sounds like you need to apply for disability based on your schizophrenia which comes with medicare which should enable you to get a psychiatrist and therapists with minimal cost.”
However, I see you are not in the US. I do not know what programs you have available there, but maybe you need to seek out whatever government or charitable assistance you can.
It does not sound like you are going to do well alone.
I haven’t taken my meds because they were causing me to feel tired and I was falling asleep so early and feeling exhausted the next day. Also, i felt anxious while taking them. The thing is I am not so worried about the meds as I am worried about the lack of friends and my toxic family. I don’t know how to find someone to talk to daily.
It sounds like you need some way of getting a therapist.
Medicaid would probably cover it here with no job and money.
It’s hard to give advice to people in other countries with systems I dont know.
I don’t live in the USA. No money for online therapist. I am trying to work from home but currently I cant even take a shower. So there’s no way for me to start working and earn so much money now.
In some ways a person has to accept they are alone, and finding a supportive companion can’t be expected. You have to develop your own therapeutic practices, especially not leaning on something you can’t expect from anyone. You should look at what support you expect from others and try to fulfill it yourself. Life is lonely even when you have friends. Loneliness is sort of a lack of your own resources and dependance on others.
Can you go in a lower dose. I take half my dose usually. Some pills are ok to split and some are not tho so be careful if you do.
can you please send me a pm? i need friends.
Sorry I didnt mean you have to be alone, but it is dependency that seems so be causing lonliness. People should make friends
I have been living with my parents my whole life. I think people can know my thoughts and read my mind. If I try and argue with my father he will completely shut me down sometimes. I have always feared terrible things happening. I have one sister and I get along OK with her. I go weeks without showering sometimes. I have trouble just brushing my teeth daily. I am about to hit my mid 50s. I am on disability payments and health insurance. All of this has been going on for over 25 years. I get emotional and cry. I still have joy in my life and a lot of good memories. I am coping very well right now also. I take a very old antidepressant and a very old antipsychotic and a newer antipsychotic.
Taking Inositol and vitamins has helped my OCD and intrusive thoughts a lot.
Maybe you can try a different medication.
Apparently latuda , Geodon and abilify does not make one so sleepy.
Talk to your psychiatrist or dr about it.
Welcome to the forum.
No friends and toxic family being the scapegoat etc sucks.
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