I feel like I'm possessed

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I’ve been on citalopram for over 4 weeks now and it was started to work but today I just feel like crap again… the lowest of the low thoughts are backk. I can’t even spell or use grammar properly wohat the frickin fracjsdjf what the f*********** egt the f***** ut of my body ughghghghg

it won’t let me cry I was always a massive cry baby always always but for the past few months I haven;t been able oto cry wghat is happening to me

They/It are even controlling my legs and feet I am unable to walk slowly they always make me speed walk and won’t let me move so even lifting my own freaking leg felt impossible I had to literally drag my legs to the car.

I can’t even reach out for help because everypne has been programmed to think that what’s happening to me isn’t real and that I’m not even mentally ill they all think i’m fine i’M FINE I’M FINE I’M FINE.

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Is their someone you can call?

Perhaps you should make a appointment to see the person who prescribed it to you…

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wow, you sound really upset! I am so sorry. You sound like you are unstable…are you on meds? please seek help from a psychiatrist.

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You need to take the antipsychotic your pdoc prescribed you. It will stop the senders you think are controlling your body and keeping you from eating.

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Yeah having this illness can be very intense.

In psychosis or schizophrenia people have very very strong convictions,
But in reality it is a illness/overactive imagination. Delusions. Nonsense.

I think when your mother tried to explain to you, “Your fine, Your fine.”

Idk how to explain it but it was a sane response
What your experiencing she doesn’t experience, but based off reasoning it could be easily dismissed.
(Still doesn’t mean you go through it and experience such things.)

Like shaking your head to nonsense,
Knowing that you are delusional,
And then trying to calm you about it.

Anyways my heart goes out for you,
Some days it’s just such a hard walk dealing with this, hopefully you have a well family support base, and are well met with a doctor.

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Citalopram is great for depression, not so much for schizophrenia. If I were you I would talk to your doctor and suggest the word “antipsychotic”.

The last stuff you said about everyone being programmed to think this or that, that sounds like a delusion. If you have delusions you ought to be on an antipsychotic, not just an antidepressant.

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Edit: I meant to type don’t go through

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@JH85 @jukebox

Thanks for all the replies :slight_smile: .

I’m supposed to be having an appointment with the psychosis team on Monday however, they said on the phone that they’ll send me a letter in the post with details on where to go for my appointment but the letter hasn’t came yet and I have a feeling that it won’t.
I guess I could call them but I hate phone calls & what if the letter is still on the way and they say “we’ve sent you a letter just read that” and then the voices will be saying horrible sh** to me.
So I have no idea where I’m supposed to be going —> probs won’t end up going —> I get no help -----> nothing changes.

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@frencheese @Chrisjjack ^^^

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@Anon10 ^^^

I can only tag 2 users at once -__-

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I just want to die today lmao. There are people I can talk to who can “help” me but I’m too pathetic to reach out to them :sob:

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Pick up the damn phone and call them, so you know where to go!!!

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Nvm the letter has arrived haha, I guess the universe isn’t against me today.
Saw a man turn into a bird and into a plant though which was kind of freaky.

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