Was out tonight people threatening me and swearing at me, a guy saying that I am going to die soon, I don’t know what I did, I don’t think I did anything. This is not fair. Just want to be left alone.
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I’m sorry you’re having such a tough time.
Can I give you a cyber (Hug)?
My paranoia is constant when I’m outside, but thankfully I never hear anyone say anything to me directly.
Take care, 
.
- Monte
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I hope you will feel loved and valued for who and all you are .
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I have felt such feelings too.
As a child I felt unwanted and unloved.
And I was so hated for ruining a relationship for existing that could kill me and even tried.
My delusions and paranoia and voices as a adult made me feel unloved aswell which was wrong.
Like my closest ones were hating me and pretending to love me which is reficulous because I remember the warmth of their cuddles and it was sincere.
Unfortunately I had paranoia about my grandma even my dog and that every one was up too mischief about me.
Which made it difficult to leave home for all one was hearing hate attacks etc
I had symptoms as a child too.
I am a wanna be Christian perhaps.
I believe in God but do not seem to belong to any religion I have heard of .
I love grace to be said as thankfulness for food etc
I pray to my god in the bathroom mainly.
I love 
my God.
I am a wanna be Christian because my grandma wanted me to be a easy going one and my mans family are Christian.
I think there is a lot of beauty in it but I honestly do not understand or believe the way they do but I said I would try.
I felt stigmata without blood years ago and I had a dream that Jesus was my match maker and had a romantic partner for me and I met my man .
I am so thankful for that.
I have felt so alone and hated etc but I know I am loved although I’m not every ones cup of 
tea.
The ones who love me most may also hate me at times perhaps.
To feel loved is a great feeling and so is it to love but if you love and it’s not mutual that might not feel nice.
I was christened as a adult.
It was not in vain but I honestly prayed and said I try .
Now I wanted to experience communion but was told you have to have been confirmed first.
It’s not impossible but my memory and understanding can be poor.
Am I a wanna be Christian for the wrong reasons.
I still pray to my God.
I hope all of us on this forum will feel loved and as valued members of schizophrenic community.
Love to you and may you feel better soon.
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Sorry for blabbering on your post.
I apologise.
I truly hope you will feel loved and love.
I am not belonging to any religion at this point in time but I believe as I do but digg there’s beauty there etc
Love bomb to you yo!!!
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Also that you will feel safemmsafe .
That was indeed tough, maybe those people are on drugs. They are definitely crazy.
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