They don’t do it on purpose but it’s just cos I’m so low in motivation and fatigued.
I wish I could interact more with them and support them more but my confidence and energy is low.
I HATE HATE being in bed most of the day but I have no choice atm. I’m just so tired. And low in motivation. It’s awful.
How do you feel with your immediate family, are you close to any of them
I find it overwhelming seeing them do SO much stuff and have Energy so moving out will help chill me out a bit.
Just with my mom. The rest of the family treats me in ways I don’t deserve to be treated.
My parents are some of my best friends I drive 30 minutes every day to see them. They do a lot for me and I’m grateful for them too
Really my family has seeming the perfect world. And sometimes may be true. Especially seeming to me for my sister. My sister is not ignorant at all. But she has a nice little bubble she lives in. Maybe I’m ignorant to think that. But I haven’t been lucky enough to live in any sort of bubble due to mental illness for a long time. Most My life has been pretty raw, real, and set to “the rules of real life”.
I feel ashamed of memories of inside jokes of childhoods. Like my childhood was good and it was too good…until I was about 11. But it’s unfortunate I can’t feel any pride towards my life like my sister. She had a great upbringing for the most part other than her brother being sz.
I mean…I felt bad when she said to me “I mean mental illness…it can happen to ANYONE!!” When I didn’t feel I was just anyone. I know she meant well and was saying “anyone even my brother” but I don’t feel I’m “just anyone” ever. I had a lot of trauma and no one was ever there to back me up give the support I needed in my traumas. So it was tough. But I’m doing pretty good now. But it’s not like my sz was an accident I don’t think. Is what I’m saying. Truly if it’s an environmental disease, and I’m not blaming no human, but it’s not just a bad luck thing in getting bad genetics. It’s a Lot of things probably
my brother and sister are successful…im considered the black sheep of the family at large
Im sorry @anon90843118 that you feel this way. I know what you mean though. My sister and father plus two neices and nephews are camping this weekend without me. Why didnt i go? Because i have to go to the damn pharmacy every day as i have for the past 10 months. Its such ■■■■■■■■. And i could go to my brothers birthday party today at 4 pm for a short party, but i hardly know anyone there and feel anxious.
Its easy to start to feel abandoned. But this stage will fade away i hope.
My entire family does not like me but they seem to support me?
I’m confused. They seem to support my education, but they don’t seem to support my disabilities.
close with mom and dad. and im on agreeable terms with my brother and sisters. mom and dad want me to do more though and to date and I just don’t think it’s going to happen. sometimes they say I use my disability as an excuse but on the whole they are supportive. they do get tired of hanging out with me more so than I get tired of them. they have social lives with friends and activities throughout the week and think I should be the same.
I don’t talk to one of my sisters and I don’t talk to my step siblings anymore. I talk to my dad every few months or so. I talk to my mom a lot and I’m close to one sister. In therapy I learned I’m the lost child. It’s like I’m not even there.
Why do you have to go to the pharmacy every day?
I mean I go once per month
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