I feel like I can never win. I decided to stop buying coffee outside and make my own. It’s been great for saving cash but I started drinking WAY more coffee than usual. I drink so much that I am no longer hungry until dinner time.
The dormant ED in me has started springing up and making me feel guilty for the little I eat, and I even get thoughts of throwing up my food again. This is ridiculous! Will I never be rid of my ED? 
I already have bad acid problems from my past vomiting and I would really prefer not to start again 
I’ve wasted years to my ED as it is.
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Don’t worry about what you eat.
Try eating one meal a day. Your body needs food (carbohydrates, protein & fats) to operate properly.
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I do this. Every. Single. Day.
I hate it. There are days when I wake up like “yes. This is the day I start sticking my fingers down my throat again” I don’t know why. Part of me wants to go back maybe? It’s just an addiction. A mental disorder totally ■■■■■■■ with us. I’m afraid I will lose my teeth. Sometimes I have nightmares I’ve lost my teeth and then I’m afraid to bite things. Or use my teeth. Like they’ll crumble. It’s weird.
But eat. Every. Single. Day.
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I have a ED too…all I can say is try to eat as hard as it is…sorry I don’t have any good advice…
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Yeah you need to eat @stellaglow.
Preferably 3 meals a day.
Get professional help for your ED if need be.
Take good care of yourself.
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Definitely eat enough. If u don’t u might get massive urges to binge eat.and that could set off a vicious cycle.
I’d cut out the coffee. It seems to be bringing you big problems.
I had an ED for 18 years and have been in recovery for 7. It does get easier, it’s just really really hard.
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I just finished exercising 
This is standard for me; had to stop because I feel light-headed. I feel guilty to eat…why are food-related things so hard for me? I’m sorry if I trigger anyone I just don’t know what to do. I feel stuck.
If you’re going to exercise this much, you must eat. You’re going to wear your body down over time, just eat healthily and fall in love with different flavours if you can.
Please I’m worried about you
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