I can’t stop thinking or talking quietly about the bullying I received in high school. I insult or punch the air. I realize how much anger I have inside because of the abuse I suffered at school. These are ideas that I can’t control. Has something similar happened to anyone else?
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I get anger issues when i lower my dose or off meds
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Ive felt persecuted for the past 7 years …like I was being mobbed in the community… It’s caused me to have pretty bad anger problems. I think the key is letting go man…maybe talk to your therapist about it?
Just to keep it real I still struggle with anger till this day but when the triggers are gone I try to let go and move on… It’s super hard tho. Good luck man
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I stopped vraylar a few days ago, but I don’t think that’s it because with the medication I also had these thoughts.
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Thank you. Yes, I talked to the therapist but I don’t think there is a cure. Sometimes I think that when I can get out into life, if new treatments arrive, maybe I will forget about the past. Currently I am still locked in my house and I cannot forget my past.
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Did you try to socialize? It makes me forget my problems temporarily. Maybe contact previous friends. Also dating apps have an option to connect with friends, or you can socialize with family
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Man that’s rough… Well hope they find a cure. Until then try to grow whatever brings you well-being. I’m in something similar and I know for sure it’s gonna take a while to heal if the perceived abuse stops… just hang in there man your not alone in your suffering… honestly
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I only have one friend but we talked a long time ago. The only thing I do is walk. I don’t know if I would dare to use Tinder, I’ve never been on a date.
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Thank you, yes I know there will be better treatments this year. I have to hold on a little longer, maybe a year at most.
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Walking outside makes my mood better. When it was warmer I walked outside 1h daily. I hate winter too cold.
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You cannot keep dwelling on the past. Im just as guilty. When i feel hurt and victimised from whats happened to me - i write it down and throw it into the sea to deal with it.
You got to let go of the hate. It will eat you up. Forgive them - and move on.
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I spent the first 45 years of my life being extremely angry at my father for his abuse of me, and at my mother for her indifference about it. Then, my father apologized to me for the abuse, which he never before acknowledged, and also I had a profound experience that I’m not allowed to talk about on this site. These occurrences led to my complete healing from suicidal depression.
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I hear you. Except mine was my mother. And im sort of ashamed to say i only felt some peace 2 years ago when she died. Classic emotional control - where she would even get angry if i had more than 4 inches in the bath in case it wet the tiles.
She made my life a bloody misery for years. I used to call her an ambulance chaser - slightest thing wrong and she would call an ambulance. Even down to amateur dramatics in the supermarket where she would “faint”.
And thats why im happy pissing away her money. I bloody well suffered for that inheritance - and damn well im spending it.
My “father” was called roger as well . And she treated me like i was her ex husband. That’s why i changed my name to seth.
Sorry you may have triggered me a bit lol 
Im having a vent lol.
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Niavana I know what it’s like to be an outsider. If people mistreat you don’t get angry later they will pay the prize. Try not to think about those bad bullies. They just want to see you miserable. Ignorant people will sooner or later pay for there stupidity.
Your name tells me about your goal and I’m sure you will reach it in a life span.
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Thank you 
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Remember that forgiveness has physical and mental health benefits.
Nirvana just curious, how old are you? I’m trying to get an idea of how long ago high school was for you.
I’m 27, I still have nightmares of my high school bullies so I’m in this fight with you.
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I try to forgive them, but it’s something I can’t control. I am 29 years old. I’m sorry you’re going through that situation.
Anger is as natural to humans as love is. Just like love with anger there is righteous anger and toxic anger. The universe from which we originate from is chaotic and since its chaotic we are also chaotic. But out of this chaos comes order just like with the universe at large. Anger like the other emotions can be messy and cause strife or it can elevate a worthy cause like activism. It’s our goal to learn from these dichotomies and fully embrace our whole selves. Sorry your experiencing this because it sucks.
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I also have the anger issue. For overcome this, I would take a deep breath after than I feel better.
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My moms ex husband did some sexually traumatic ■■■■ to me and I also hear his voice in my head coupled with tactile sensations. you could probably understand the anger I feel when I have to hear his voice every damn day and mocking me. I can’t heal when I’m still dealing with this.
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