Aww don’t be too hard on yourself about it Mae. Sometimes things go like that. I mean there’s always that trunk space available to get smuggled into the U.S. by way of Tijuana waiting for you.
But seriously, don’t worry too much Mae. You’ll be alright.
I’m doing alright. Had a pretty decent day so far. I think exercising is helping elevate my mood. Mentally, I feel a little more optimistic. I guess inactivity was starting to bring me down.
I’ve always wondered. Do you have a German accent when you speak English? I think I remember you mentioned being from Germany?
Well, I go for a light jog on the treadmill a few times a week. Nothing too fast. Mostly a mile then a walk. Admittedly, I haven’t felt in the mood to run a mile so I just ran half and walked the other part along with the 2nd mile. I haven’t been pushing myself too hard. I got the treadmill with my stimulus check and haven’t been using it as much as I’d like to. I used to be able to run a mile no problem, 10 years of cigarette smoking later, I get a bit winded heh. I’m sure in a couple of months I’ll get my endurance back.
I mean I can keep going while winded but I just get lazy and settle for half.
There was a time in my life where I’d jog a mile everyday before taking a shower. I feel so old and out of shape now. I used to do it while singing Mariachi songs lol. Sometimes my friends would walk in and be like “Why the ■■■■ are you singing?” But eventually they got used to it. They’d still laugh about it though.
Talked to guy. Good. You found out what is what and no future there which is good. Your learning. You know it’s not going to go anywhere for you so time to move on. Your working. You’ll meet people. Just stay cool and people will come by that you’ll probably groove with better…
So. Your so young still so keep on keeping on and maybe do some therapy if you can and work on that confidence and your perspectives about love and sex…wouldn’t hurt! …but find a good therapist which can be hard!
It is probably a very bad idea for you to get emotionally involved with this guy. If you’re losing your head with him maybe you should stay away. Protect yourself and your emotions.
How do you know he is not that into you? I believe that you are so insecure and doubt yourself so much that no matter what he said or did to convince you otherwise you would not believe him.
@rogueone mentioned in a previous thread that you should seek counselling from a Therapist, and I tend to agree with him.
He doesn’t often initiate conversation on the phone.
He doesn’t want long term, which was decided after we met
He doesn’t really respond to some things I say or ask.
He made a sarcastic joke about loving me… Who does that? I was confused. I’m still confused. Because I didn’t understand what he said when I asked him about that comment. I thought I did at the time. But now I’m not sure anymore.
The way I understood the sarcastic joke about loving me… Is him trying to tell me that I take his nice comments towards me too seriously lol.
But not sure anymore.
Maybe he meant I took the sarcastic joke too seriously.
Men are funny critters, they don’t like full on too soon in a relationship, they like to take their time so perhaps he finds your questions too confronting. I don’t know.
I still think you need therapy @Zoe as you are very insecure going by your constant need for reassurance and attention. Any bloke you meet would find that hard going.
I hope I am not offending you by suggesting therapy.