I really feel very depressed because I’m useless and rubbish at everything I do. I cant do anything that is good anymore. And I cant do the one thing that I was good at that was my art. I feel very depressed at the moment and want to end it all tbh. I’m ugly dumb and have nothing going for me. I dont know why my parents even had me I feel like a mistake from the beginning. I keep asking the universe to take my soul because I dont want to live on this planet anymore. Now this diagnosis is the icing on the cake I really just dont see a point or a way out to my suffering. I cant stand it anymore.
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Can you provide the help lines @anon4362788 @Ninjastar @Moonbeam @rogueone ?
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@anon15119022 you sound intelligent and articulate. You don’t sound dumb at all.
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If you are feeling suicidal or having a mental health crisis, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a crisis intervention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries. You do not need to be actively suicidal to benefit from a crisis hotline.
International crisis hotlines:
Crisis hotlines in the U.S.:
https://www.thetrevorproject.org
More resources:
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if ur symptoms lets you u can do deep breathing in the early morning and do daily moring walk… ican feel you my friend… blessing from all the member to you…
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Youre thinking really negative. Maybe try not feeding the negativity by not evaluating so much. Most people are all of the above but the typical person doesnt think to the point of self destruction. Most people are just consumers of media in their day to day lives and are content with that. They arnt making art themselves. But if thats what you want to do keep practicing. Make improvement the focus of your energy instead of self depreciation
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Why can’t you get back into your art? It might be worth the effort. That could help you feel better about yourself. You sound like a creative person. You might do more than you thought you could.
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You need to get your mood back up. I have been depressed many times too. The thing is when one is depressed one tends to emphazise only on one point of view which is the negative one and forget all about everything else in life.
Getting plenty of nutrition helps your mood get better. Make sure you eat decent food and if you aren’t already supplementing I would recommend to at least take a multivitamin and mineral every day.
Lots of people struggle, you are not alone in this. Just becuase our lives are difficult and challenging doesen’t mean that we are hopeless. I hope you feel better soon.
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Thats tough when you lose what made you feel useful. Id suggest trying to get back into your art if you can, if you cant then maybe you arent properly medicated. Then I would talk to your pdoc, its happened to me that I cant do music or work or anything when not on the right meds
Good luck and just know that people are rooting for you
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I don’t know you at all but I’ve spoken those same words many times. It hurts. It’s hard. When you run out of reasons to keep trying you just feel like giving up. I’m so sorry you are feeling this way. I hope you can think of something to hold on for. A friend, a family member, a pet or something you have yet to do that you want to experience can give you the hope to carry on in your darkest times. It’s all overwhelming right now, but remember it will pass.
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you are not dumb and i’m sure you aren’t ugly either…
i’m sorry to hear you feeling down.
I felt also for a while like didn’t understand why my parents had me and felt bad about myself but it got better so i hope it will get better for you too.
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Thank you everyone. I appreciate everyones kindness tbh I dont know if I’ll ever get better because I feel incredibly ugly and have sexual problems from meds and other issues that I feel make me totally un loveable I just want to be normal like everyone else and have a normal life. I know love isnt all about sex but you cant deny it’s a big part of it.
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Just from reading this thread , you don’t seem dumb to me.
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I feel useless too.
But in a playful way.
I find amusement in uselessness.
I play purposelessly like a kid
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I don’t know what you look like, but the inside is way more important than the outside.
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Do you ever dress up with wearing nice clothes, or fix yourself up with wearing make up? You might be surprised.
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Nobody is useless we all have a purpose in life. I know it is hard but tell yourself positive things. Right at this moment I have extreme paranoia and very bad anger also have been suicidal so I feel like crap too. Remember don’t give up.
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welcome to the forum =)
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I’m sorry things are so hard for you right now. I was suicidal for many years. But I’m not anymore. My life changed for the better. Yours can too even if you can’t see it. I know because I’ve been right where you are. I had lost all hope. But my life is better now. I still need an antidepressant everyday but that’s no big deal, doesn’t bother me at all
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I think you have boxed yourself in. I hope some people somehow can love you and get you back on track. You are at a deep low. I was helped by taking an anti-depressant.
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