I texted my therapist today “when it comes to alcohol…i wanna stay sober and wish i could. but i know i cant keep long sobriety with it. relapse is inevitable but i think it wont make my life unmanageable. kind of like you were saying. but i think itll be different now because of my meds. im no longer treating depression and anxiety, but just satisfying the addiction i have (regardless of how serious or not serious it is).”
I guess what I’m saying is I feel now that I’ve got my meds right I only have the will to have a couple drinks every week or two. But there’s no way I could string together, months, years, decade(s) of sobriety.
I will never do drugs again which is my real demise and have definitely learned my lessons with that.
But now that I have my meds right I’m sure that I won’t need to drink 2-3 times a week.
Others worry about the med interaction with alcohol but I don’t worry about it all that much if I have a drink every 2 weeks…
I had a drink the other night. One cup of lemonade mixed with vodka.
I don’t feel right at AA.
That’s where I’m at in my sobriety.
No will to drink since I drank on wednesday, but I know come next Friday i may want a drink. I think if I’m cognascent then it will only be a once a week kind of thing.
Its alrigt to drink every once in a while. It sounds like your getting control.
Whenever your not drinking though. Put it out of your mind. You have to build a mind that is separate from alochol. I think you’re making great progress.
Hell I have a drink every weekend. I have a double Jack fire on rocks.
Alcoholics can’t just drink one drink. Or two shots on ice. They drink everything in sight or they don’t drink at all.
They also drink whenever they can, which in some cases is like every night and even every morning. Or they don’t drink at all.
I thought I was an alcoholic but my shrink told me I wasn’t and my psychiatrist told me I didn’t have to be clean and sober just no getting drunk. Two drinks is not drunk.
I also wait for the Xanax to wear off before I have a drink. Drinking on it is bad. I can feel my tremors and anxiety come back after like five or six hours, then I can have a drink.
I do keep beer in the house in case I flip out and need to be put to sleep. I do whatever it takes.
But you aren’t under my pressure no offense so you might not urgently need to be put to sleep.
you probably hate hearing things like this but my dad died from chronic alcohol disease so you probably guess where i stand on this, i take a drink myself on occasion but i just wish everyone could do it in moderation, ‘drink in haste, repent at leisure’ it is a saying i have heard and it does ring true.
if you have a real problem like if one is not enough then i suggest you dont have any, as it could trigger you to drink more,
go to a different meeting. Check the end of this post for a list of meetings. Apologies to you scrollers for the lengthy post, but it is worth a read if alcohol or drugs are disrupting life for you.
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