I have had yet another bad day where nothing got done no lunch no dressing I don’t know when last I brushed my teeth or hair. Hubby despairs of us ever staying together because I can’t take care of him with my sz and he can’t look after me because of his seizures which makes him unable to drive. Plus he has leg injury. He said maybe I need to go to hospital but I don’t know do I really need it? I feel so dead and unmotivated to do anything. Things crowd in my head my thoughts spin and I am left number and useless. Sz has once again stolen my life away first no varsity then no job then no licence then no convent. And now my marriage is in trouble.I’m so un-independent. I see my pdoc tomorrow and I am so glad because things can’t keep on like this! My whole life is one big failure
I am also going through a very rough patch at the moment.
It is a good thing that you are going to see your pdoc tomorrow. Maybe you should make a list of all your symptoms and give it to him. That is what I normally do.
I hope things become better for you soon.
Can you try this evening to brush your teeth and hair? It is a small step but you will feel better afterwards. Don’t get bogged down by all the things you haven’t done, ignore that for now, just do one thing.
ETA I need to take my own advice since I didn’t brush my teeth last night. And I am in pajamas and a robe and it’s 11 am. But I am committed to clothes and toothpaste in the next hour.
I am also not feeling well today. Hear people harass me calling me names and reading my thoughts. Feel so conflicted just want to sleep or go out and escape. Hope you feel better.
xXx Hugs
Hope you will feel better soon.
When I was having problems with this I wrote to do list of basic simple every day living tasks such as
Get out of bed
Brush teeth and hair
Have a drink n breakfast
Do dishes
Take out garbage
Cup of tea or coffee n some form of to you doable activity (I crewchette)
(It actually helps me n when I almost had psychosis again n thought I might need hospital n wasn’t feeling ok at all crewchetting helped n better than pacing up n down.
Maybe ask your hubby if he wants a cup of coffee or drink n give him a hug.
Bake something or make nice dinner for you both.
Put some lippy on can feel nice n give colour n moisture.
I usually wear no make up at all except lipstick even when I’m alone.
My grandmother wore lipstick when she was 90 years old even.
Hope you will find something that suits you n helps you cope n feel better.
Do you have other family?
Do you have social difficulties?
Maybe you can set little goals.
It took me 15 years or so to get my licence n that is automatic.
I failed n was devistated n felt so retarded n hopeless but kept at it n eventually got it when I was thirty something n it’s one of best things to happen to me.
Good wishes to you.