It makes no sense. I’ve always wanted my siblings to succeed. I’m happy for them that they’re successful. Period.
My sister comes over giving round about advice to my mom about me. She always frames as experiences from work. Then she’ll pause to let it sink in. A topper is that I said I’ve quit smoking for five days. Then five seconds later my sister says you know I’ve quit chapstick for two years. It’s like really you’re still in competition with me? Why in the first place and do I need to come out saying you won a competition I was never. There is a lot of resentment from all three of my siblings about me. I really just wanna ask them if they wanna switch places with me. They wouldn’t last two seconds in my shoes. I’m not gonna lie to you it stings for a second. It’s not because I lost some imaginary contest I was never in. It’s because I want a perfect relationship with my siblings. As they’re chatting and I’m not participating😀. I don’t understand the competition or resentment at all. This makes no sense to me.