My economy is tanking. Some unexpected expenses came up, and I have to choose between food and a place to stay soon, if I can’t convince my mum to lend me the money.
She’s already told me how much she’s giving me for an early birthday present, but it’s not enough to make ends meet.
With this freelancing I’m essentially doing two full-time jobs and it’s still not enough.
Even thinking of asking her for more money makes me feel like a greedy ■■■■■.
This is all my fault. I should be working harder, making more money, maybe have saved up more before I moved.
I’m a stupid ■■■■, a garbage pos and I deserve everything that’s coming to me.
I fail at life.
I’m about to have my third anxiety meldown in 3 days from the stress and I doubt I’ll sleep tonight, but I need to keep doing as many freelance gigs as possible if I want a fighting chance at surviving another month.
This is all my fault. Stupid ass ■■■■■.
Don’t mind me, I don’t really expect any response. I just needed to vent and feel like I’m not the only one in the world who knows about this.